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I need your help. I talked, (you know what I mean) about my situtation with the mm who said that he wanted to change because he had alot of problems.

That was last week on [color=red]Saturday[/color], Sept 18th that we broke up. I asked him was it really over and he said yes on that day. He need to change.

Okay so on [color=blue]Thursday[/color], Sept 23rd, he calls me. I am looking at the phone in SHOCK. I am like what! I did not answer the phone even though I am missing him like crazy. I just did not understand why he was calling me. So on [color=orange]Friday[/color], Sept 24, I see him at the gym with his wife. Just so happens this guy was trying to talk to me at the same time he came in the gym. He was into me. You could tell he was all interested and everything. Helping with my weights and all. I dont know if he saw us talking but it was clear that we were talking. I wind up walking away from the guy because I need to use another machine. Anyway I wish I wouldnt of.

Well I had to walk past him, not very close at all to get to the work on my abs. I know he saw me and he know I saw him but we did not speak or make eye contact. THAT WAS THE FIRST TIME THAT HAS HAPPEN THAT WE HAVE BEEN IN THE SAME AREA AND DID NOT SPEAK. We have been there so many times and this was so weird not to talk especially since we have not talked to each other in a while.

I feel awful. I did not like seeing him with her. I did not like not talking to him. I did not try to talk to him and I did not want to talk to him. The point is that I miss him. I dont know if I want him back. Sometimes I do. I just feel bad inside. I wish I did not see him. I just dont know how to feel right now. He probably thinks I dont want him because I did not return his call. I am not sure what to feel right now.