[Cynda]

I am a 28 year old woman addicted to online porn. I don't know how my problem progressed so quickly. I look back about 11 years ago and realize that I've always had a sexual addiction. It started when I was about 17 and my boyfriend loaned me some of his father's porn videos. I watch them continuously....over and over again, while pleasuring myself. When I wasn't looking at the videos I was fantasizing about them constantly.

A few years later when I got a computer, it was all over. I would view porn for hours and hours. This would interfere with my sleep, spending time with friends, etc. I just could not stop. I ordered a few videos in the mail. Over time I had a pretty nice collection...later I threw them all out when I vowed never to view porn again.

And presently, I still struggle with online porn. I am constantly searching for more stimulating images. Downloading movies, etc. I can't stop! I need help and I don't know where to get it. I've deleted all the porn sites from my computer, but the very next day I find myself searching for more. Afterwards, I am left feeling empty, ashamed, and guilty....Most people think that addiction to porn is only a problem with men, but it's not! I want to stop, but I truly cannot. I am becoming more and more depressed. Please help.

-Cynda

[Touch_of_Naughtiness]

Maybe you should seek the help of a psychologist. If it's as bad as you say, maybe you need professional help.

[She's Come Undone]

There was a story about this on one of the news programs. This one guy gave away his computer to stop. Another man cut the cords literally to his computer and tv and pasted pictures of his family to his tv to remind him of who he was hurting when he watched porn movies.

The first guy had tried everything, 12-Step programs, hypnosis, and none of those worked.

I feel for you and hope you find the answer.

[fredrolin]

Cynda, what do you look like? Height? weight? Do you have trouble getting men?

Most women have no problem getting sex anytime they want, or do you prefer masturbation and porno?

I am a man and believe me, if I could get sex anytime I wanted it would cut down on my masturbation.

[She's Come Undone]

Originally posted by fredrolin
I am a man and believe me, if I could get sex anytime I wanted it would cut down on my masturbation.

Yeah RIGHT!!! LMAO

[fredrolin]

Originally posted by She's Come Undone
Yeah RIGHT!!! LMAO

Hey baby, I'm getting older. I can only bust so many nuts per day.

[Cynda]

Thanks for your support...I think I do need to take the next step and maybe try a 12-step program on my own. I tried to find an internet filter, was not sure which one to install. Any suggestions? At this point of deperation anything is better than nothing...

Addiction does not discriminate. It makes no difference your race, gender, appearance, sexual preference, etc. I'm an attractive female. I've been sexually active since high school. I still am sexually active with my partner, but lately, porn has overcome my life. I just don't understand this. The more sexually active I am, the more I want to masturbate...In my case, masturbation is not a substitute for sex.

Well I pray that soon I will be delivered from this addiction.

Thanks for the support!

-Cynda

[moimeme]

Hi

There were some folks who posted links to sites that have information on porn addiction. Here's one

http://www.loveshack.org/forums/show...969#post134969

and another

http://www.therapyinla.com/articles/article1102.html

Best of luck fighting this!

[Cynda]

Thanks for the helpful sites

Go to www.settingthecaptivesfree.com

They should be able to help you. I too have battled addiction to porn, and it is hard to break but it can be done. I will pray for you!!

[AnnaMay]

I feel for you as the first step to getting toward your goal is recognizing that you have an issue that needs attention. Don't give up!!

[jmargel]

It could actually be a medical problem (chemical imbalance). You might have such a high sex drive that you are considered to be a nymphomanic. Just that you release to 'porn' instead of sleeping with countless men (which is good).

[JadeStar]

Heres another link that might be helpful.


www.secretaddictions.com


Best of luck to you

[Silver Tree]

Pornography is like an empty glass of water
It takes account of your thirst
Then hands you an empty glass
For a while you can drink from this glass
Until you are filled with that
Hollow empty feeling

I've been addicted to pornography in some form for a longgg time as well. I could chuck the computer, but I was addicted before I had a computer. Wish I could break the addiction- and live a fuller more vibrant life---

Sometimes I rise above it- but the undertow of this obsession keeps dragging me back down into a heart numbing fog.

I don't know how to break my addiction. What I have tried so far has not worked, so it is time to try something new like this forum....
....and maybe some professional counseling of some sort----

so I have hope
even after all of this time
and all of those empty glasses
after all

[RecordProducer]

I only see porn addiction as a failure to fulfill a huge desire to be pleased sexually by a real man. Find another man and you will be happy!