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I got caught
I really messed up.
My boyfriend has lost all trust in me. We live on separate sides of the country and that amplifies my paranoia to a certain extent. We have been fighting alot and he has said he might want to date other people. We were on a vacation together and things were perfect.This was our make or break time together and things were better than they have ever been. Things were great until the last night when we started arguing about whether or not we would have children--he was thinking he might not want to. That night someone called at 1130--he said then and the next morning that it was a wrong number. I looked while he was in the shower--something I had gotten caught doing 2 years back--he kicked me out of his home. I saw that that number had called him before and he had answered it. Why would he have said that it was a wrong number. I looked in jis cell and he has answered a call from there before. Why would he lie? I got the number and called it. Asked the girl on the other line where she was located. She seemed wary of me. She told me Florida but that was all i got. I called again this morning. I have been extremely paranoid and emotional lately as its almost my TOM. I told the girl this might sound odd, but someone had called my boyfriend from this number late at night. Did she know anyone by my boyfriend'd name in the city he lives in. She said no. I apologized and just said I was a bit freaked out. She said she would do the same thing.
My boyfriend called me 2 hours later and was pissed. He asked what I was thinking? Had I made any calls? He said I was crazy and unbalanced. That he could never be with anyone he couldnt trust. I asked him what I was supposed to think. He said he didnt care and that was his ex-girlfriend's parents number (they live in a different state). His ex's sister had called him. Why would she call at 11:30 on tuesday night? That sounded fishy. I asked him then how he did not recognize the number. He didn't answer. Why did teh sister lie too? That I dont get. He said he had to go and I just kept saying I am so sorry. He didnt even want to talk about it. I asked him if he would call me. He said he would when he felt like it. I texted him that I was so sorry for acting like a fool and to please forgive me. He replied no. I have sent him 3 other messages saying I am sorry and please call me. He responded "stop-I am with my Family." I am miserable...ashamed...confused. I've never gone this far before. What should I do? Have I really just messed it up beyond repair?
Last edited by SamanthaX; 26th July 2004 at 6:43 PM..
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