I had been with a girl for 6 months, the problem is that for those 6 months i have been studying in another country, however we had known each other for a long time before and when we got together we both thought that this was it, this relatonship will not be messed up because it was me and her, not poeple that make mistakes.
the last 3 weeks she had been growing distant, not calling replying etc. When I pressed her to know why she said that the distance is destroying her. I said that I understand but it is only 2-3 weeks more and then I am back for good, to be with her. Then she told me that she feels that she can do it and that she will wait for me.
Then three days ago she said that she is not in love with me anymore, that the distance destroyed her and that she cann't be with me because she doesn't want to lie to me. I asked her just to give me a chance to come home and to give our relationship a chance by thinking about me when I am back, not to let it die into the night. She said that she cann't do that, that there is no chance, that it's futile and I will only get more hurt and she doesn't want that for me. I said OK, at least whatever happens I will need you by my side to ease the pain. she didn't understand that, she said that it will hurt me more by that. I said that everyone is unique and that if I feel that this is good for my pain now she should respect me.
I feel terribly mistreated. In the many times that she was depressed (and unfortunately she gets that way easily) I ALWAYS helped her and was by her side, as much as the distance allowed it. She thanked me one million times for being there for her and promised and promised that she will do the same if i need her, no mater what happens. Where is she now??? Nowhever and I am dying in pain here all alone, being abroad means that all of my friends are away as well...
How can she not help me, do what I ask her to do and stand by me in my pain. She is so stubborn, held in her own decisions about what will be good for me that she doesn't even listen to me. Nobody can decide about someone else's life, now I need her, I am going home in 2 days and I need to see her and talk.
I need her to give me a chance, look inside herself for me, think if now that the distance is over she can love me again, try to help me as I had so many times before.
I am so sad it is unbearable, I don't deserve this, I never made her sad and if I did I always would help her..
thanks for reading, I know how you could have felt in the past, we are all human after all....
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