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LDR with my kids, visit not sure coming back
well I am in a LDR with my kids, my little boy 9 years old, my daughter 14 years old.
I do not know what to do, I feel very confussed about my situation. I sit and cry cuz I miss them so much and I want there hugs and kisses. I want ot give them mine.
I left my hometown to move west cuz I hate it there, a year later my 2 kids wanted to go back and live with there father. I allowed this cuz sometimes a daddy is better then a mommy, there friends, there old ways.
Anyways I am going out there for 2 weeks for a visit, I am not to sure I can come back here missing them so much.
My problem is, i know that I do not like living there, I know that I do not want to be there and the reason would be cuz my kids are there. I love them with all that I am i want to see them more then what I do,(last time Febuary). But I also want to be happy. I do not think that I can force myself to be happy after a period of time going by.
What can I do? I love them but I hate the city. oh ya i also do not drive due to panic attacks while driving. so moving to a different town is not real.
Thank you for any help
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