[Starnette83]

well today was 4th day no contact, i havent called him and he hasnt called me...anyways i cant sleep..and part of it is cuz imma see him at school tommorow, and hes gonna gimme my book back-i need it to do a paper- anywayz im scared...scared that he will be indifferent with me, and scared that my feelings will be rushing inside me..ugh!! i thiink about him every second...ugh...its weird...gosh!! i miss him...and well i feel like he dont miss me..i wanna go to bed, but i proabbly wont be able to sleep..

anyways theres this new guy his name is andrew , i just met him this weekend, hes cute..but still im not over my ex..anyways he wants to hang out...should i? the thing is that my confidence is so low..so i feel like when he sees me again he wont like me..i dunno..im crazy...plus
im scared to get to know someoen...ahhhh

I miss my ex...3 years and 5months..and now..well he didnt appreciate me, and he lied to me...and was leading to almost cheating..why do i care???ugh..and how long will it be til i recover>?

[meanttolive4ever]

after me n my ex broke up..i had guys all over me like i was meat or something. But i did get to know them better...but i would never date them cause i've known them forever. Some of them were my ex's friends. I still cant see myself dating someone else and i cant see him dating anyone either. We were the kind of couple where no one ever say anything bad about it, like "oh they dont look right together" or anything like that they would always say "they look so cute" buts its alright..he'll be back