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I am tired of having to prove myself to the women I date. I suppose in a way I don't have to or they don't want me to, that is they like me for me, but in another way I think women do expect me and men generally to prove ourselves worthy of them. It is rather tiring sometimes. Sometimes I would like to do away with the "game" and just be, just be me. I know the game is important and women feel they are teaching us and we are learning and we probably are learning, its just I would like to be friends and a lover to a women without so much b.s. Is that possible? I know the girls I date are reasonably non-traditional and have an open-mind but I am wondering if I can get beyond the typical games to something a little more substantial, something with more meaning. Something perhaps with even a little more spontaneity eventhough I usually find a good deal of that in my relationships as they are. Maybe I am expecting too much, but I just feel that to be a real man I have to be ambitious enough to take things to that other level and if the people I deal with can't deal with that, then maybe I just need to leave them behind.