[Odradek]

I said we we're going out..and out we went!!. She did take that guy tho. And they did make out right in front of me and she sat in his lap just when i was looking and everything. It hurt for sure, I won't deny, but I kinda had no time to think about it since I was having such a wonderful time with my date. We got really silly talking and joking the entire night and by the end of the night we were huggin and kissin -not in front of them tho, I'm just not that kinda person (although sometimes I wish I were). I guess my momma just thaught me better than that.

It's a mixture of feelings you know. I really feel there might be something here with this new girl, but I can't deny I'm jealous over my ex and that guy. I guess I still love her. On the other hand I wish the best for them both, as I;ve heard from her hes a really wonderful guy. Happy, angry, jealous, confused, excited, mad...all at the same time.

What has me worrying tho is that I'm afraid I may be unknowingly using htis new girl for a shield. She's really great and I so do think she does deserve better than that, but then I also think I deserve to give myself a break.

The test of fire is gonna be Monday, when I'll have to face my ex and the guy inside my circle of friends at college. I know I'm gonna feel jealous and terrible. Maybe I should just stay out of their reach.

[supermom]

why would you go on a double date with your ex? All you're doing is creating an awkward evening for you and your date. I think until the feelings for your ex are done, you should keep your distance.

Try not to let your new girl be a rebound girl. that's not fair. Instead maybe go out alone with her and get to know her.

Also I think your ex is not thinking of your feelings by flaunting herself to her new dude in front of you.

distance yourself from your ex for awhile.

[Odradek]

It wasn't a double date. I was out to celebrate my bday and all my friends were invited, including her. SHe just took this guy, which I didn't think she'd do.

I know It's not right to use this girl as a rebound girl, and I do plan on going out alone and getting to know her. The distancing from the ex is gonna be a little harder tho, since we have to swee each other many times a week and hang out in the same crowd.

But thanks for the advice anyway.