[Raja22]

In love with a married man who was mine first


This is a long story that I have to tell- I have a huge problem

I dated this guy for about 7 years. He was my high school sweat heart and my first love. To make a long story short we were young and in love. He cheated on me many times but again we were 16 years old. Time went on and he enlisted into the military. He wanted to marry someone so that he could get more money. He asked me, But I said no - I wasn't ready. So he asked some other girl that he knew for about a year. Of course she said yes and now they are married. I was asked to be his wife first.

He now has a baby and is unhappily married. (Who would've thought). I have seen this man on and off since he's been married. He says that he does not love his wife but loves me. He is now in Iraq and I now have a wonderful boyfriend who worships the ground that I walk on. I am deeply in love with my ex even though the last time I saw him I pretended not to be. I still keep in close contact with his family. We are all really good friends. I am an emotional wreck because I love this man more than life itself. I feel that I cannot breathe if something were to happen to him while he was away at war. I want to tell him how I feel but this is such a hard situation. I don't want to break up a marriage(even if it's just for a paycheck) and now there is a baby involved as well as my wonderful boyfriend. My boyfriend does not need to get hurt.

I think about him everyday and I long for him. My soul ache's without him near me. He is my soul mate. I want him back A.S.A.P
What do I do? This is very important- He cheats on his wife with other women other than me- He says that if I would've married him that things would be different. He says he's just very unhappy. Should I tell him how I really feel? What am I going to do? We are still deeply in love with each other

Please someone give me some advice!!!!!!!!!

If you had a friend who posted what you did, and you read it, what kind of advice to you think you'd give her?

Let's see. The guy cheated on you "many times" when you were together years, ago, for those 7 years (LOSER).

He wanted to marry someone so that he could get money (LOSER). He asked you, and you had the good sense to turn him down because you weren't ready....so out of, what, deep love for you, he asked SOMEONE ELSE? (all for the money of course) (LOSER).

He's been cheating on this wife, with many different women, you say (LOSER).

He's now helped to create a BABY with this woman he claims he doesn't love and isn't happy with (LOSER).

Yet he's your "soul mate" and you "love him more than life itself" ???

Please, get some professional help because there's got to be something drastically wrong with your mindset/concept of love, if you could THINK you were in love with a lying, deceiving, cheating loser such as this.