[atari_emo]

Hey Everyone,
I'm in a very weird situation at the moment. My girl left me Last week and i feel f***ing great. I'm finding that i'm not hurting at all. Only problem is that i dont know if this feeling is artificial or not. since we broke up i've been working out like a madman, trying to pump more weights an lose some of that fat(put there by to much drinking at uni and after football game parties). Anyway this is really keeping me occupied and i think that i'm getting over her. I went an seen the doctor an managed to convince him to suscribe me some "phentermine"(diet pills) to assist in my quest to look the best i can. At first the motives to do this were to somehow look "attractive" to my ex and somehow kickstart some chemistry. These diet pills are based on the same molecular structure as amphetamines. Is this whats making me feel good? Am I turning in to some drugged up junkie? But the thing is, that i feel great and really psched up to get on with my life. My plan of attack was to se my ex in around a month or abit more. This would give her the time to think about if she made the right descision and would start playing on her mind that i'm over her. This one month would give me the time to workout like a madman and look really good. If things dont work out, i can allways hit the dating scene again full of confidence. There is allready this girl thats interested in going out to a movie or dinner or something with me. Have i really moved on or am i just happy that i'm on these pills? Either way i feel great and i realise that there is so much stuff that i can do now that i'm single, I feel really really good and she dumped me last week. After 2 years and i feel fine. I still want to be with her but i feel like i'm starting to hate her asswell. Just seeing the selfish coldhearted way she dumped me and left me there crying my eyes out like a little pansy. I'm to good for that and she dosent deserve the satisfaction of me grovelling for her anymore. I'm going to get in top shape and see her in just over a month an if she dosent want me then the world is at my feet. It's probably not healthy for me to get over her like this as i've missed the healing process of grieving and bargaining, acceptance etc just because i'm on these drugs now. Is this good for me? Am I truly over her? Any thoughts on what i'm doing would be great(even the bad responses) I just need to know what everyone else thinks about this. Thanks all

[Vivid_29]

I'm glad that you are feeling really good about yourself, but I don't understand what you are trying to accomplish here.

From what I gather, you want to look your best to impress her by doing these super intense workouts. All of this seems to be a ploy to win her back and to show her what she had let go.

Now, you said that you are starting to have feelings of hate, because of the way she cold-heartedly left you. If this is true, why do you want to get back with her? Do you really want to get back with someone who hurt you? Or maybe, your love for her has turned to lust.


My advice to you -- stop this ploy bulls**t and try this new woman that wants to go to dinner with you. Forget the ex!