[lilacmuse]

Hi everyone, I am new here, and in desperate need of advice.
I have been married to my amazing husband for 6 months now. We are both 28, so not too young, and dated for 3 1/2 years before becoming engaged, and were engaged for almost 2 years. So it's not like we just jumped into getting married. I love my husband dearly, and have been so happy - until recently.
There was this guy that I was friends with from the time I was 15-years-old. We were friends for years, and always kinda had feelings for one another but the timing was always off for us. One night, several years ago, we ended up hooking up, then decided shortly afterwards that it wasn't going to work out for us. Later that year I began dating my husband, and forgot about said guy, and fell deeply in love with my hubby.
This guy and I eventually ended up losing contact and haven't seen each other in years. Then a few weeks ago, he found me on Facebook, and something inside of me lit up. I was so excited to hear from him and have not been able to stop thinking of him since.
We haven't talked on the phone or anything, only online a few times, and very brief. But thoughts of him and I run vivid in my mind. I can't stop thinking about him, and even worse, feel like I am even longing for his prescence. It's starting to eat away at me inside. I have this wonderful husband at home and all I can think about is this other guy!
I've even contemplated contacting him to meet up and hang out. I dream of kissing him, or him holding me. Then in another sense, I miss our past friendship. He was such a great friend. But I don't even know what happened to us, other than sleeping together ruined a friendship.

I feel so damn guilty for all of these emotions I am experiencing. I just got married to the man who is the love of my life, and 6 months in I'm fantasizing about someone else! It's frustrating to feel this way, and I feel like I am going to jump out of my skin.

I am mostly afraid that if given the opportunity, I may even act on my impulses. I keep telling myself that I wouldn't, but I don't know what I'd really do. I feel like a horrible wife. And this guy isn't even a part of my life, I guess talking to him online brought back old feelings that I thought had gone away.

I don't know what to do. I don't want to be a cheater. I want to get this guy out of my head and focus on my new life with my husband. I have no idea what to do to eliminate these feelings and urges.

Any serious answers would be greatly appreciated. Has anyone else ever experienced this?

Thanks.