[ItsAllGoodAgain]

My ex and I were only together for about 5 months but in that time grew very close. I'm 31 and she's 25. She has a 2 year old daughter and was in the process of moving back home when we met. She herself just got dumped 3 months prior by her babys father. They had wedding plans and he called it off stating he doesn't love her anymore and doesn't want to be with her.

We had a long distance relationship for a few months. We saw eachother every weekend at the lake and loved each others company. I was always sceptical and causious with my feelings because of her past. I knew that if I let myself go it would be dangerous. I knew I was a rebound canidate. But one night while her and I were out on the town she asked if we could take this to the next level. She wanted to committ. I was scared but decided at that point to let my guard down and just let my feelings flow.

A few weeks later she left a note in my car stating how much she was in love with me and how she felt comfortable and safe with me. She asked if I could love her in the same way. At this point I've already fallin for her. I told her I would love her and her daughter and would be there for the both of them.

A few weeks later she moved up here to be closer to me. I coninced her to enroll back in school and start working towards a better life for her and her daughter. She was proud and very motivated and said I was the reason. I gave her the motivation to strive for a better life. She told me she wanted me to be there. She felt safe with me ther so we spent a lot of time together once she arrived. I moved her in by myself. I child proofed her entire place by myself. She was very greatful for everything I did for them. We had a great, loving relationship.

A few months later she told me she needed space. She told me she didn't know what she wanted. She thought she wanted what we had but wasn't sure any more. The next morning I asked if I could come over for a cup of coffee and she accepted. When I arrived is when the begging began. I told her not to throw this away. Don't give up on this. She told me she didn't want to but was confused. She told me she loved me and didn't want to lose me but needed space.

She left for her parents that weekend but before she left wanted to see me. I came over and she told me she loved me and missed me already. She told me she already knows she wants to be with me but still needs some time. She left and immediatley texted me she missed me.

Throughout the weekend she would text things like "Hi" and "I miss you". But one night she texted me she was sorry for hurting me. I was the best thing for her and she wanted me back. I called her and told her you have to be sure and she said she was. Well the next day was little conversation. Then that night she texted me "I can't do this, I can't be with you". I was devistated.

I attempted the no contact for a few days but wrote her a letter letting her know that I understand what she was going through. I told her All that I ever wanted was to care for her and love her and her do the same. I wanted to be there for her and she wanted the same as well. After the letter I stopped contact.

She called one evening and Ihad missed the call. I called the next day and she said she didn't mean to call me. I told her then thats its never too late. I continued the no caontact until I recieved a drunk dial at 2:20 in the morning. Of course I answered. She told me how sorry she was and that she really loved me and always would. She said she knows I would be the best guy for her but not now. I told her I'm not hanging on and I'm moving forward. I'm not dwelling on the past and wondering what might have been. We got on the topic of sex and how much she missed my touch and body. Just a bit of nonsence.

She had mentioned her ex and how he showed up again. She knew he wasn't serious but they were talking again.

Since then she has called and hung up once and sent me a "make a wish e-mail". I responded in a drunk text early the next morning with "wish in one hand..." I feel shes trying to let me know she is still here.

Now the question. I care deeply for this girl and want nothing but the best for her. I am unsure if I want her back but feel very strongly that I do. Her birthday is tomorrow and a part of me wants to let her know that I am here. Its been a month. Do I wish her a simple Happy Birthday?