[jones]

I dated my girlfriend for 2 years and during that time everything went great. I had been in a few relationships before and had been cheated on. Since I was her first boyfriend I knew I had to becareful and not hurt her. Towards the end of the 2nd year, my feelings began to change, another girl whom I was friends with had recently come back from school and was living in the same city as me. Although we were not very close friends, we always connected and I became very interested in her because I got such a warm feeling when I was around her. Sounds corny I know! But somehow I thought I could just ignore my girlfriend and try to warm up to the "other girl". Well I began to ignore her and become bored with my girlfriend eventhough I never had the courage to ask the "other girl" out, because somewhere inside of me I knew it wouldn't work. (Yes I know call me crazy, but I had to try it) So since November I haven't had a date with my girlfriend, although we have talked on several occasions. She got the message eventhough it was Very hard on her and I admit I was a REAL JERK, I ignored her and didn't tell her my feelings and ignored even her birthday. Over the next 4 months I never did really hang around the "other girl" that much our schedules didn't jive and I began to notice that we really never had that much in common, (we actually never dated, we always hung out in groups of friends)

In March the "other girl" started dating someone, which really brought me down to earth and I realized that I had spent all this time chasing after nothing. I lost my girlfriend on the count of "wondering about dating someone else". She was the best thing that ever happend to me and I totally blew it.

I have talked to my ex many times over the last 3 weeks, I send her cards and flowers to let her know that I am sorry. I want her to realize that I am sorry and that I do miss and love her. She is very reserved when we talk and doesn't call when she says she will. I hope I haven't blown it, I LOVE HER and have need all the help I can get with this one. How do I get her back!!!

Please!! Let me know!