[4givrnt4gtr]

Have you ever felt that? like you wouldnt kill yourself but if you were to die for some reason it wouldnt be a bad thing?

I know a lot of people who are afraid of death and I cant understand why.

Days like today really make me not mind dying. This usualy is followed by "for a little while" which doesnt make sense, so it occurred to me that i mean I would like to be unconscious for a while. Im in a lot of physical pain right now and I would LOVE it if it just ended like right now....it hurts so freaking bad. (just came back from doctor who was totally useless and after touching my stomach for a while all he had to say was "take tylenol", despite the fact i was doubled over with pain grrr)

In any case back to the topic...does it ever happen to you guys? Honestly, my life as of right now isnt all that great, not too horrible either, but if I died I wouldnt mind it.

WEird cuz i dont feel actually suicidal...just tired, but not really depressed. I would never hurt myself, by any means, and I would feel so bad for my family if i did die...but...i dont know.
The thought hit me as i was trying to make my way back home after the stupid doctor and kind of made me nervous that I would care so little for my life...

Has it ever happened to you guys?

[Ariadne]

Originally Posted by 4givrnt4gtr

Have you ever felt that? like you wouldnt kill yourself but if you were to die for some reason it wouldnt be a bad thing?

Yes, I feel like that all the time.

That it will be over.

[Ross PK]

I used to really want to be dead for a long time, up until a few weeks ago.

The antidepressants that I'm on now though are really helping me.

[PinkToes]

I would never take my own life, for a bunch of different reasons. But do I wish the world would just stop? All the time. Depression is a horrible way to live. All those 'medical breakthroughs' that promise to help you live longer just make me laugh.

[Meaplus3]

Originally Posted by 4givrnt4gtr

Have you ever felt that? like you wouldnt kill yourself but if you were to die for some reason it wouldnt be a bad thing?

NO. Because it would be a bad thing. I have 3 children who need and love me.

I know a lot of people who are afraid of death and I cant understand why.

Well, I can tell you this. I believe people are afraid becuase it's the fear of the unknown that scares them. Who would not be scared by that?

Days like today really make me not mind dying. This usualy is followed by "for a little while" which doesnt make sense, so it occurred to me that i mean I would like to be unconscious for a while. Im in a lot of physical pain right now and I would LOVE it if it just ended like right now....it hurts so freaking bad. (just came back from doctor who was totally useless and after touching my stomach for a while all he had to say was "take tylenol", despite the fact i was doubled over with pain grrr)

If your feeling this way, you really should find a therapist to speak with. Therapy can be very helpful. Any chance you are depressed?


Mea

[melodymatters]

I've clicked on this a few times and didn't reply. But Yes.

In one years time My husband died suddenly and tragically, my career is basically dead, my only child started college early and we no longer live together, so empty nest.

The economy is so bad, it's hard to find a job thats just somewhat fun, and gets you out of the house.

I've tried SSRI's ( anti-d's) and I must be allergic or something because the side effects are SO bad, 20 min after the first dose.


My fantasies now comprise of me being killed quickly and painlessly by some product or organization with a lot of cash, so that my D will get money to finish her education and start a life.

I accept that I had my time, and many good times too, but it's all over now. Just serving time.

( and no, I don't have insurance and I don't need to talk to a therapist about how and why my life sucks. It just DOES. Fact.)

I'm not going to kill myself either : I know how that feels all too well and won't do that to my family, but i am just praying and waiting for it all to end.