[pbear]

I finally met a great guy he treated me better than anyone ever has ever, we loved spending time together, talked about a possible future together etc... We dated (exclusively) for 2 1/2 months. Then, we had a conflict. He disappointed me by not showing up or calling when he said he would to meet up with me and a family member. Turns out, he had accidently fallen asleep. I was upset and overreacted and said things to him that he said hurt him. Later I apologized, but he kept bringing the incident up. He never treated me the same after that (we dated for another 3 months), he said he was afraid I would always act that way when things didn't go my way, and he believed I purposely wanted to hurt him. We tried spending time together again but things were different. I felt like I was the only one making any effort in the relationship. Finally, the last straw for me was when he accused me of screening his calls (he didn't leave any messages) and said he needed to "reevaluate" things (this, after he didn’t return my phone call for 5 days). I said I didn't need to reevaluate, I knew what I wanted and I needed him to be the way he was before. He said he wanted things to be that way too, but didn't know how to change things. So I said we should go our separate ways. My problem is, I can’t get over him and can't stop thinking about him. This relationship was, at first, everything I ever wanted. It has been 2 months and we have not talked. A couple weeks ago, I saw his number on my caller id, but no message. I haven’t tried to contact him, but I really miss him and want to try again. Should I follow my heart and contact him or is this a lost cause?