[ambied421]

I still feel terrible, and it is six months later. i broke up with him. It was not working, I felt that he was emotionally unavailable, and he had told me he still had his guard up. I was unbearable getting close to him, so he could only push me away. I got tired of waiting for him to get close to me. He would stand me up at will, and never return phone calls. So, six months ago, I broke it off.

I knew it would hurt him, because he is quite sensitive. He had told me days before I did it that he trusted me and really cared about me, but still had his guard up. We had dated almost a year. Then he proceeded to stand me up that next night when we had plans together.

Unfortunately, i work with him. I believe it has been harder for me to get over him and move on because we work in the same place. I have not talked to him since the day I broke things off. Six months of not talking to someone you work with is really hard.

About 3 months ago I started noticing that he was driving past my house. I eventually was outside one day a few weeks ago and caught him doing it, and I am assuming since then he has stopped. Seeing him drive past hurt, because I have gone out of my way at work to NOT see him. I even changed my schedule so I wouldn't run into him.

I just want opinions. I feel I did the right thing in breaking things off, I have never broken up with anyone and assumed the dumper always had it easier. Boy was I wrong. I feel terrible and guilty. I miss him so much, and it kills me not to see him at work, when he was the best part of my work day. I heard he was seeing someone (from another co-worker who does not know we ever dated), yet he was still driving past my house.

I don't understand why I still feel the way I do, or why he was driving past even though he had moved on to someone new. Anyone have any thoughts, or any advice in moving on. I feel like I'm drowning.