tempted to phase myself to 480 volt bus bar at work
I love life but at the same time I feel like whats the point. Ive been so down on life that lately I want to electricute myself at work. Sometimes its tempting to just jump in the panel . Ive felt like this since my ex and I split. She doesnt even bother calling. Thats just part of it.
My best friend went to jail. My family cares but no one reaches out.
I know I wont but why does my mind even entertain the thought
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"Discontent is the first necessity of progress. "-edison
"I have not failed. I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work." edison
People have dark fantasies every now and then (if you even want to call it a "fantasy"). Just relax, things will get better in the future. If they didn't, then the world's population should have been low already.
I know I wont but why does my mind even entertain the thought
I think thoughts of suicide come around when we are feeling down and brainstorming our options -- but we realize it's too FINAL an "option" to make it really attractive. Then the brain takes off to consider sum'it else. At least, that's how it has worked for me, in the past.
Have you considered reaching out to your family instead of waiting for them?
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"They always say that time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself." ~ Andy Warhol
Unless your hands are really sweaty or you're standing in dirty water, 480V probably won't kill you. You'll have to make a good, solid connection, and dry skin is a pretty good insulator.
Of course, it would hurt like heck.
Keep your chin up, and try to kill yourself with porn instead.
Unless your hands are really sweaty or you're standing in dirty water, 480V probably won't kill you. You'll have to make a good, solid connection, and dry skin is a pretty good insulator.
Of course, it would hurt like heck.
Keep your chin up, and try to kill yourself with porn instead.
Does your work have resources to help you? Do you have religious affiliations?
I remember in one of my early break-ups, I took to cutting myself; the behavior continued when I would get stressed and depressed about anything. Sometimes, we know what we're doing (even just thinking about it) but we need help...
That was a hard phase. I didn't want anyone else involved, but being a minor at the time, the school had no choice but to have my parents intervene. The help seemed excessive, but I got rid of that horrible habit.
I wish your family would reach out to you... I hope you'll find the support soon. The feeling you're going through, it just sends shudders. It's a terrible place to be at.
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The opposite of love is not hate; it's indifference. - Prof. Elie Wiesel
"With every goodbye you learn" - Veronica Shoffstall
Be still, and know that I am God. - Psalm 46:10 "No! You're doing it wrong!"
Yours is the busbar, mine is the crane. It can hoist 5 tons, enough to easily snap my neck.
Funny that busbar sounds so close to Buspar, an anti-anxiety medication.
There have been many times when I wondered "what's the point", but even in my darkest hour, I realize I could never do that sort of thing to my friends or family. There are people in my life that would be devastated by such a thing, and just knowing that alone has made a difference.
If you suspect you are suffering from clinical depression, I would highly advise getting on some type of SSRI (anti-depressant)
Clinical depression is no joke. If you are sleeping odd hours, getting no joy out of anything you normally love to do, unable to eat much etc. see your doctor.
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I often think, what's the point? Why not die? Then it flicks to, but what if you don't succeed? You'll just be in pain and people will laugh at you .
So far, (For as long as I can remember) everyday has ended with me thinking, what's the point? Have fun? I'm not doing that, I'm a depressed, lonely freak who works, goes to school and has almost no social life ._.
My mind entertains the thought cuz I wanna get out of the pain maybe? Iono, but heh...it never amounts to anything.
Wow - now I'm really sorry about the Dodgers comments!
No - until you return yourself to a happier state (as you know you will...), I suggest you OVER focus on the things in your life that you do enjoy. No matter how trite or mundane.
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