[carrotgirl]

Hey ho. No noose.

What's good is good, GD, Cat, my new-ish (now old-ish) pad. I'm back to dance class twice a week. It's wonderful!

I have a guilty pleasure, it's these extra strength Mr. Clean Magic Erasers. Who knew they were so handy? Made things so clean? I'm sure they are bad for our environment in so many ways but everything is so shiny!

Work is still rancid. I'm ready to retire. Things with GD are good. Otherwise, tired from the aforementioned rancidness and on my way to a nice, sunny day luncheon of a glass of wine, a nice piece of homemade bread and nap!

Carrot

[carrotgirl]

Work has been completely draining. I'm not myself and not feeling much like being near a computer during off hours.

All is well with GD. We had a rather tough few days with my work schedule overtaking my life but we're both coping!

I'm going to get a little sleep now. I wanted to say a quick hi. So many interesting posts but I'm falling off as I type.

Carrot

[carrotgirl]

I finished (and I mean the papers are written - this baby is D.O.N.E.) a major study this week. Huzzah for me. I spent the whole of the day in bed today, exhausted.

GD has taken over the care and feeding of our summer holiday. It is good for him to do the planning and paying this time.

Otherwise, no real news and I'm going back to bed.... very tired still.

Carrot

[carrotgirl]

Dreadfully sick these past days.

Too much travel, board meetings, social blah blah blah blah blah blah. Food poisoning or something caught hold and I spent a few days with my head in the toilet, then finally got myself on a plane home.

GD had to come get me at the airport. I was too sick to drive myself home and couldn't get myself into a cab. I was too sick to move. I called. He came. He stood outside the ladies for about an hour while I vomited. I remember being annoyed at him for not coming in with me before getting in his car and passing out.

I take it all back. When we went to go get my car (still at the airport) I said, I remember being annoyed that you wouldn't come in the loo with me and then I remember being annoyed that you kept trying to talk to me when I was vomiting.

GD said, Carrot, I don't care if you were annoyed. At the time I thought you were hung over and I was trying to decide if we were going home or to hospital. Now that I know you hadn't been drinking I'm sorry I didn't take you straight to emergency.

And then there was a half-hearted lecture about being careful about what I eat. But we both know there is no way to know if that one salad has the nasties somewhere. I don't even know if it was food poisoning. I am a good five kg lighter than I was a couple days ago and that's after massive fluid intake.

So I'm in bed now. And this is where I will stay a while.

Carrot

[carrotgirl]

For any who lurk - we're in the end phase of a very bad misunderstanding where GD was a jerk but I was the one who took it into the lower (much lower) realm of Gojira v. Gamera.

The fighting, such as it was, is done. Some small smiles passed in recompense after the I'm sorry and I'm sorry toos. I'm in need positive, healing vibes (only) if there are any out there to spare.

So clap your hands if you believe in fairies or something like that. I'm beyond potato eating to self comfort. I am feeling like such a f*sking idiot for not trusting myself and trusting him better.

Carrot

[carrotgirl]

Thanks for the vibes. Nuclear meltdown deferred on account of we love each other or some silly nonsense like that.

I learned a tough lesson in trusting myself and trusting GD and trusting what I know despite the (frequently unsolicited) advice of others. There are some people who don't do well with normalization. We're some of them.

This morning GD surprised me with a half crate of wee zucchini in full blossom for making supper.
Flowers.

GD isn't every woman's idea of a romantic man. He's MY romantic man.
The blossoms were delicious.

Carrot

[carrotgirl]

It's been a turbulent few weeks. I'm doing okay. GD is doing okay. We're learning. And at the end of the day, I still love him and he still loves me. We're both so similar in so many ways! We're both so stubborn! Neither of us is willing to pitch it. At least not at the same time!

The flowers keep coming. We keep eating them.

Love,
Carrot