[aubree1982]

I did a very imature thing and looked through my kinda boyfriends text messages on his phone....yes I know it was wrong but I fully trusted him and did it anyway. (Guess I've been hurt in the past and this is how I've found out info on my ex's)

Let me go back a year ago....I started dating him and we instantly fell in love although it was bad timming for both of us. We recently started seeing each other again but agreed to take it slow. So far we haven't put a label on what we are to each other although, last night he told me I meant alot to him and that we wouldn't break my heart. When he was taking a shower this morning I looked through his phone and read some pretty negative texts. One was from someone saying they thought some other girl was better looking than me and that with her at least he wouldn't have the baggage. His response was "yes she's (the other girl) is better looking, true no baggage." It's not news to me about either of these things. I may not be the best looking girl but I'm far from ugly and yes I do have baggage I have a child from a previous relationship.

What hurts the most is that these comments came from him. There were other texts about how this other girl is looking better the more drunk he gets! At first, I thought "screw you, I'm never speaking to him again." But now that I've had time to think I'm not sure anymore. I was in the wrong for snooping in the first place but he also shouldn't have anything to hide. I sent him a text that said I snooped through his phone and I'm sorry and that I read some that really hurt my feelings...etc. He never responded and that was 6 hours ago. So I sent another one a sec ago that said I felt bad about what happened and I'd like to talk whenever he's ready.

I just don't know if it's worth it for me to try to work things out with him or if I'm being a girl and overreacting. Also, I have no idea what he's thinking either especially since he hasn't responded. He could be pissed and embarassed by what I saw....who knows.

I obvisously know I'm in the wrong here but it's he a little bit as well?