[broncos23]

Long story short. My x and I broke up. We continued to "talked" just not bf/gf. A month or two passed and she told me she couldn't any more. So we were officially done.

One day she asked me if I could go over. She wanted to know why I was ignoring her and I told her why. She said she still wanted to be friends but I told her it would be hard to do that, especially with all these feelings I still have for her. She told me that she is still not over me completely and that she still does love and care about me but we cannot try on the relationship for now.

Last night, we had a surprised birthday party for a friend. She came. She text me saying that if she should come, and that if we were going to hang out. I say yeah why not. As soon as she comes in, she's texting away. That has to be the most annoying thing in the world. When you try to hold a conversation and every two seconds you get interrupted so she could answer her texts.

I couldn't take it so I just walked away. She eventually left the party for some else's house down the street. Later that night I got a text saying how come if I said we were going to be hanging out we didn't. I told her about the text thing and how I guess I got me mad because I'm pretty sure it was some other guy on the other end. I know I should not get annoyed at it but it still does eat at me because I still do care about her.

Another thing. Yesterday she sent me this text saying listen to "Strangers" by Jon Bovi. I listened to it and the lyrics were pretty deep. I thought to my self there has to be a reason why she's sending me this. But no she only said that it reminded me of us. We got into a big fight , this all being before the party, because I told her she shouldn't send me things like that. I told her stop playing games. She denied it of course. I still don't know what to make out of it.

So my question. What should I really do? I feel like if I just distance my self over time she won't care anymore. However, if I do try becoming her friend, I will get those feelings again only to maybe find out that she doesn't want anything more than a friendship. I also don't want her feel like it's all okay now because she has me as a friend now. Stuck in the middle. Some guidance would help a lot. Thanks.