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he doesnt love me anymore...
my boyfriend and I were together for 8 months. I attend a great college and he was a high school dropp out but still earned his GED and attends a JC and has lots of earning potential. He dropped out of school because of his mother. You see his mother is very unstable, before the age of 16 he has been to 14 different schools and moved several times. I have also found out that she dropped him at his best friends house for months before returning to get him.
Well, when we started going out with each other it was pretty hard. He wouldnt open up easily and would constantly try and break up with me but then came back. Things got pretty steady and we started to see each other every day. He mustered up the courage to say he loved me and after that it was just complete bliss. we were inseparable. In december his mother said she wants to move to TExas and wants him to go with her. She put up a loan for the house and everything. We were devastated. He held me through the night saying he'd come and see me, that he would drive and that no matter what he will always love me. 2 weeks pass by and his mother said she wasnt going anymore because she didnt want to leave her boyfriend anymore.
Christmas was amazing!! I spent time with his family and he spent time with mine...the next day I had to leave for a week due to a basketball tournment and he told me he'd be waiting for me until ii return. During the trip however i started to distance myself because my friends were talking about my relationship and how interracial relationships hardly ever work. That black ppl should be with black ppl and whites with white...and that white men only use black women..ohh by the way im black and hes white. It was stupid but somehow i started to believe him and even had the nerve to confront him about it. He was hurt and after that we didnt talk very much until i returned. He seemed different when I returned...a little different but i tried to overlook it. We went ice skating the following week with his sister and the next week went to the movies. He told me he loved me and it was great until one sunday evening. He came over my house to tell me that his mother broke up with her boyfriend...he was so sad.
The next day we had a huge arguement about race and I became so angry I just broke up with him. WE stopped talking until Thursday when he asked to see me. I saw him and he held me saying he was sorry and that it was stupid and that he didnt mean to lose me and he started to cry...ii told him he hadnt lost me. Then he asked to see me tomorrow and of course ii said yes. I didnt hear from him until thursday he said hes sorry and that hes just been busy and that he wanted to hear my voice and that he missed me. Then another week goes by and nothing. Im so hurt at this point until he calls me yesterday and asks to see me again. I see him and all he did was stare at me...try and hold my hand...and told me that he loves my smile. Then he asked me if i was talking to anyone and ii said ii was. He then said that hes not and he wish he was. That he misses having sex and that hes looking for someone...ii was hurt. he then hugged me...a long hugg and walked out and said goodbye.
Today I poured my heart out to him told him In still loved him and wanted him and all he said was thats alot of info.I asked him why he doesnt love me anymore and he said I honestly dont know...but i still want to be your friend. OMG!! I dont know what to say or do...im hurting and want nothing to do with him!!! do u think he doesnt love me anymore?? how did it all change so suddenly...
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