I made a mistake and went over to ow/om and read where a betrayed wife and 5 kids were abandoned by the cheater. He left her for OW and she ended her life. It scared me a little because for about a year after D-day, I thought about it alot. How I would do it even.
Did you ever think about it? Not melodramatically, but seriously?
Even remembering this takes me way back to a dark dark place. yeah. i considered it very seriously, but I could not would not leave my daughter to fend for herself.
Self pity can only be taken so far before it becomes gross negligence.
I also consider(ed) it. To be honest I thought about it today. Not only am I dealing with my WF but I am also dealing with my family drama. Sometimes it seems like it would be better to just end it. I am still in that dark place. But, I think of what everyone in my life would think and feel like my X would hold himself responsible and I couldn't do that to him (sick how I think about his feelings first, huh?)
Early on I actually wished for trucks to hit me or drive in to me. I just wanted the hurt to stop. I think about ways I would do it...what I would write in the letter...how he would feel...wonder if he would be sad...It's sick, really.
I have had a bad life...but nothing has ever made me contimplate this before. I really feel for that woman and her children. I know where she was at. Like all of you replying, I just didn't act on those feelings.
If suicide thoughts are being considered then it's time to seek medical help, see your family doctor, get on meds and get counselling.
I think at times we've all thought about the what if's of suicide in the worst moments, and it doesn't have to be affair related either. Could be the loss of a loved one due to death, spouse, parent, a child etc...
I quite seriously considered BOTH of the options we've talked about here shortly after d-day in my case.
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If suicide thoughts are being considered then it's time to seek medical help, see your family doctor, get on meds and get counselling.
I think at times we've all thought about the what if's of suicide in the worst moments, and it doesn't have to be affair related either. Could be the loss of a loved one due to death, spouse, parent, a child etc...
This should be pinned up for everyone to see. If anyone is having these thoughts, seek help immediately!
Self-mutilation? I have to read up on what the mentality is behind that. I'm sorry you felt that way and glad you have recovered from that.
Confused1: I also didn't do it for the same reason. My boys. I didn't want them to live with that their whole lives. I doubt I would have done it anyway though.
Everyone: It was just deep depression. I was already on anti-depressants because while the affair was going on (I estimate around 2 years although he does not admit this), I had periods where I would cry for no reason and didn't know what was wrong with me. Went to 3 doctors and they all said I was depressed, but I said I had nothing to be depressed about. Talk about denial! I finally got on the anti-depressants but they can only help so much when you are torn up inside.
Confused9: Yes, it is one thing to think about it, plan it in your mind even, and quite another to carry it out, huh! Glad you are feeling better. It's just a down day for you today I guess. My family is chaotic as well and the drama just never ends.
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