Fatigued and finished

kirikat · 17th August 2007, 4:36 AM

Last night I finally talked to my former sweetie. Christ on a stick.

I suggested that we need to get together, excahnge our keys and stuff - and say goodbye in a way that honors both of us, and the year we spent together. I told him I miss him, but its time for us to move on in the best, most positive way we can.......

Which led to...

I've been thinking and I am so confused and I cant be with you but I want to be clear before we say goodbye.... blah blah blah.

Now, the irony is that the reason I broke it off is because this is what he was like IN relationship "I want to stay with you, but I am so confused, I think I love you, but I dont know" -

Now - on the way OUT of the relationship we have "I cant stay with you, but I am so confused, but I need clarity" ya da da da da da.

Can I mention that this guy is 20 years past 18?

alpha70 · 17th August 2007, 1:29 PM

But, he's not a relationship type guy or doesn't function well in them by the sounds of it. Let him go and be with someone who WANTS ALL OF YOU and GIVES YOU all of them. Right?!?

you know what to do....move forward as hard as it is.

Trialbyfire · 17th August 2007, 1:45 PM

Lord, the uncertainty sounds familiar which is why I ended one of my short-term "things", not once but three times. "I can't be with you due to x reason, but I don't want to lose you". Made me want to tell him to get off Fantasy Island.

Better to find a real man who knows what he wants and isn't afraid to go after it. Boy games are such a mind-screw.

AriaIncognito · 17th August 2007, 11:27 PM

Same here. Left the last ex because he couldn't decide if he wanted to be with me or not. He always remarked about how great the "relationship" was, but never was sure about being in it.

Whatever, we are all better off, right?

kirikat · 18th August 2007, 4:01 AM

well - Im kind of starting to "wake up" around this whole thing. I mean, yeah - I still feel bruised and a little bit black and blue..... and yeah, he was sweet and beautiful, and we had so much fun together.... and man, I will miss his body in my bed. No doubt about it,

But in reality, I am SO far beyond this guy. He could no more comprehend me that my 7 year old can comprehend nuclear physics. I hate to say this, but I think I must have spent the last year "dumbing myself down".