[Donza]

Well it will be a month tomorrow she broke up wth me.

Since then i have had limited contact, mostly from her. And my initital pleading to give me another chance etc. Aswell as frm her side..

No contact is very very hard to do..

It was my bday last Monday. And i received a happy birthday message at 11:30 from her.

Could we have made it work? maybe yes...

BUT, NC has made me think more logically and made me look back on the real problems we both had.

She was clingy, demanding, shallow, put-me down all the time.

Nothing was good enough. Moreover, she never ever told me how she really felt.

I always felt i had to force something out of her that was loving. Then i was made to feel guilty by her for "opening her up".

I also believe, she took advantage of my good fortune. My money etc..

She told me we were not compatible and that she would have to change a lot about me to make it work.

Hell, i am glad she is out of my life.

The only bummer is i kinda indirectly know about her through friends of ours and i will also be seeing her over the course of the weekend at a wedding.

I feel like a chump, but why is my heart still so heavy?

was it worth anything.

NC is cold, but i'm sure she is just as used to the feeling as she always was.

I could have given her the world......but if she wants to be alone. Then let her be...

Its just sad thats all..

We had some GREAT times, and i refuse to believe the statement she made to me when she broke up with me: "Dont you think the bad times outweigh the good times?"

I hope she meets a person who treats her well, then again i thought i treated her very well and we got this far.

I wish her nothing but the best, and maybe she fell out of love...

Good Luck D...