So glad I found this site

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I am so glad I found this site.

I have learned that I am not the only one who has these feelings and emotions.

My GF of 5 years & I broke up 2 days after Xmas. We emailed each other or I should say I emailed her about 3 or 4 times the first month. The last email she never answered & I have been NC since then. It’s been about 4 months since NC and not a day has gone by that I haven’t thought of her & beat myself up.

Like many of you, I know that she was not the right person for me. In 5 years I was never given a key to her house. In 5 years, I never had a drawer to keep my cloths in. I lived out of a duffel bag. I was the one to always give & never receive. I tried to get her involved with my kids to no avail. I worked on her house & helped her and not once was given the helping hand in return.

In reading many of the threads, I have realized that I am not the only one who has had all this happen to them. I am so happy to know that I am not the only person who has these kinds of thoughts and feelings. I just wish that for at least one day I could go without thinking of her. I keep hoping that one morning I will not wake up and immediately think of her. Each day I tell myself that tomorrow is another chance to forget and not think about her. It gets so hard and frustrating sometimes.

I just want to thank all you people for being honest and helpful. This site has made me stronger and given me the strength to continue on.