[youaremysunshine]

before we dated, me and my ex broke up were very close friends, and while we were dating we became even closer. I get along so well with him, I felt so at ease with him, and I'm a very uneasy person ussualy ha. we really understand each other and I think he's kind like a boy version of me.

anyway I haven't seen him in two months, he has a new girlfriend. we've talked a little on the computer but not much. I'm going to go to a show we both wanted to see with him next week. I'm SO nervous.

he said he just wanted to be friends, cliche I know. but I understand that what we had was kind of doomed from the start (he moved to collage 700 miles away three weeks into us dating and when he's done he's moving even farther away). so, we love each other, but neither of us could do the LDR thing any longer.

sometimes I wonder if it was the right choice, esp now that he's living 15 minutes away from me for the next four months...too late now.

I want to be his friend, I want him in my life. we may not have worked as a couple for many, many reasons but I don't want to lose him. the thing is I have no idea how to act around him, it's going to be so awkward. I'm so used to greeting him with a big kiss and throwing my arms around him. I don't know how to act and what to say...