self-image

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So, today while driving home, I realized why I make a mess with all of my relationships (platonic and romantic). I'm just not happy with myself. Well, it's not that I'm not happy with myself, it's just that I feel inadequate compared to most the people around me.

My two best friends are going to the same school next year. They get along so well. They're basically the same freakin' person. I have a lot of fun with them, but I just feel like I can't compete and they just like each other more then they like me. About two weeks ago, I told them how I felt and we just started talking again, but we never talked about. The one I talked to about it basically said I had severly damaged our friendship, and she didn't know if she really cared anymore. So, I started hanging out with them again but I still feel left out and inadequte.

In terms of romantic relationships, I rarely try to start something because I assume that it just won't work out. I'm not pretty enough, not interesting enough to hold anyone's attention. There's this one guy who I started something with, but he had just gotten out of a long relationship, I screwed it up, and he started dating this one girl, now they broke up after about a yer and he started talking to me again. So, the point of that was that I screwed it up.

I don't really know. I put on a good act, but it's just around certain people where I feel inadequate (basically my two best friend and in romantic situations). I need to improve my self-image so that I don't lose my friends and stay single forever. Any advice?