[ahsumgurl909]

Well M ended up in ICU again and put me down as the person to contact because his family members are in Alabama. So I went to the hospital his blood presure was 79 over 45. Which is supposeably dead. But he was not doing well so the x-rayed his chest to find out his heart is now enlarged and he only has 35% use of his heart because the rest of it 70% is dead from the drugs and the heart attack itself.

So yeah I went to see him every night after work and he was always there waiting for me. Never did anyone else show up to see him like the last time he was very sweet and kind to me. He was also there to get back on his meds for his Bi-Polar disorder. Come to find out he had went there to the mental facility to get help. And they gave him the wrong meds and he went in to cardiac arrest. and the rushed him to the main hospital.

So now we find out he cant take his meds for his BPD because it isnt good for him with a heart condition. So now hes just going to be disfunctional for the rest of his life. That sucks for him. I feel bad he is going through so much. But he is out again and he wanted me to pick him up but I didnt. Well I did but I couldnt find him. So I left. Come to find out he just barely got picked up and he is all mad at me because I didnt search the intire hospital for him. I just hung up on him.

As for me Im feel like I dont even want anything to do with him anymore. He yelled at me when at the hospital calling me stupid and other messed up stuff. I think Im done. And thats about it. Thought some of you may have wanted to know.

[Art_Critic]

Hi AG,

Sorry things are still not going too well..

He is lucky to have you for the times you have been there for him.. his prognosis isn't good and if he doesn't stop taking drugs it is even worse.

Keep your head about you and if you need us we are here...

[underpants]

You know,

I read some of your posts....quite frankly because it is like watching a train wreck. I am appaled yet, can't stop watching, and I am not even involved.

I hope you do cut this guy out of your life. The entire situation seems very unheathly.

I know someone who is sharing custody of a very sweet little toddler with a bpd diagnosed person and although I don't know her well I can see her shutter with fear whenever the father is brought up. It is just terrible, and ....AVOIDABLE....at least for you. Not to even mention the drug addiction which is just like dinamite on a very bad cake. Don't put your face anywhere near this.

Do what you will, but your guy, other posters who can only read your words urge you to fix yourself.

He is obviously on a downward spiral, by his choice. Sad to witness, more sad to be emotionally involved...and enabling to his abuse of himself and you.

It's a choice girl, from what I have read he can't love you. His heart is physically, figuratively, and self destructed. You nor anyone else can fix him.

What you can do is love yourself.....and fix yourself.

Do that.

[CardPlay3r]

This is going to sound harsh but maybe the best thing would be if he died, certainly humankind won't be worse off and if that's what it takes for you to get away from him...

[whichwayisup]

He keeps sucking you back in. I am sure he has other friends he can use as an emergency contact. Or other family members, an uncle or aunt? He is NOT your responsibility. He treats you like crap. And yes, it is sad he's unwell, maybe now that he has other health issues he'll stop doing drugs.

[ahsumgurl909]

But Since the day I posted this thread this man has did a complete turn around. He changed his cell phone number and only I and his family and close friends have the number. He is doing what he is suppose to be doing. Taking care of himself. I freaked out and told him to stay away from me because I had called him in the morning about 10 days ago and he was in a car going somewhere. And I heard a women voice in the background. I told him dont ever call me again and I wont call him. And I hung up. Then I sent him a couple of text mess that were pretty harsh. And then I just left it alone.


I got home from work and he had called a few times. Telling me he was with his mother and even had his mother say something so I would know he was. and then he was telling me that he wants to prove himself to me by actions etc. Well he has definatly done that. hasnt called me one name. Has gone out of his way to do nice things for me. OPening doors and smothering me with affection and little sweet notes. I donthave my guard down by no means but I knew there was a great guy under all that madness.

I believe it was the meth that made our situation so crazy. Now we are both clean and things are different. I am going to stick around for a while and see how it goes. I do love him very much and would like to make it work. Im leaving to his house right now he invited me over for dinner. Hope I may get someone here to understand why I am doing this. I could be wrong and end up hurt again. But what I have been sharing with him as of late has been wonderful. ANd may have been worth all the drama.

Thanks all of you for your care and concern I will write more if anything changes.

[CardPlay3r]

Wow, he really has you where he wants you, will you ever learn? That is the very classic example of abuse, nasty-nice-nasty-nice-nasty etc. etc.... and it gets worse every time the cycle spins.

He's been nice to you for a few days and it's like you've forgotten and forgiven the many times he hit you yelled at you and emotionally abused you....sad to see but you are pretty much brainwashed by him

[CardPlay3r]

Hi, any update on your situation ahsum?