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update: its over and i know why
i posted a week ago tonight about how my gf of 2.5 years up and dumped me without warning, without an explanation. we were primed to get engaged, married, have kids , the whole nine yards. we were in love like crazy. BTW im 27 shes 26 . we both experienced things that we had never had before, fulfillment beyond belief.
Dec 30 she dumped me without reason or rhyme. i ws devastated. she didnt want to talk about saying she needed space. i was torn to pieces the entire week, going back and forth in my mind between hope and realization of loss.
so heres the update:
i go out tonight with a buddy and im feeling extremely down about all this. we go to a local pub and order some food. he asks me if i would be pissed if i found out that she was dating someone else?
i was floored ....WHAT?
he began to tell me than on new years eve night, (the day after she broke up with me) he saw her with another guy. not kissing or holding hands just hanging out.
i couldnt believe it. i wanted to throw up.
i immediately broke NC that we had agreed upon for two weeks and called her.
i asked her to tell me straight up and she admitted that she was starting to have feelings for a guy she worked with and this was why she broke up with me. she began to cry .
she claimed that she hadnt done anything with him and that she is confused. i said " so we're done then, you didnt need time to figure things out, you needed time to get me out of the way."
she says that she doesnt want to lose contact with me and that i am very important to her.
i feel betrayed, hurt, angry, and sad for our lost love. She even admitted to me on the phone that she had experienced love like never before with me but it just wasnt there anymore.
here's my problem:
I still love this girl, she says that she doesnt want to lose contact with me and that she still loves being around me and that she loves so much about me.
All of our friends are the same and that is not gonna change so what should i do? should i remain her friend or should i just not speak to her? we will run into each other again.
I understand that all this means that she dos not want me, i can accept that i guess, but i want to leave the door open for us to talk in the future and maybe rebuild something. What if shes making a mistake and realizes that i am the one?
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