[tension]

So my ex and I had a long distance relationship. We would only see and talk with each other through Skype while we were still together. We didn't last that long. He broke up with me because he didn't trust me anymore.

See, I did some stuff online that he didn't like. For instance, I took pictures of myself in panties and I only sent him one and then I went to this message board and posted more than one. Then a few hours before he broke up with me, he and I went to this chat conference and I acted kind of crazy. So I said I was drunk but I was just joking. He knows that I don't drink. Then I revealed to him that I go this chat and talk nasty and rude to people there. He thought I was acting really strange lately. Then I said I also do drugs. But again it was a joke.

That's where he said he was getting fed up with my ****. Later on, he would break up with me saying that I broke his trust and he had no interest in being with me anymore. I was really hurt but he feels ****ed over. So I thought to myself we can fix it so I tried to get back with him many times. I promised him I wouldn't lie to him anymore but he won't believe me. He's saying how would he know if I'm lying or not?

And yeah I've been thinking about it and it's difficult, how would he know if I'm really telling the truth or not? He obviously doesn't know what to believe anymore. So do I give it a rest and move on and stop bugging him? Or do you think I could still make him trust me again? I need him and I want him back. But even if he doesn't want me as his girlfriend anymore, I still would want to be his friend. But I got a pretty bad record in his book. So please help me. I love him a lot.