[TenaciousWoman]

I am someone who for most of my life has been a Christian, raised that way, went to church, used to collect Bibles, read only Christian books, but have always had doubts & was forever questioning in the midst of everything. It was when I got the internet that I was able to explore all of my questions & in doing so, the answers took me to places I did not expect, the loss of my faith. I am one who set out wanting to know/hear/explore BOTH sides before claiming I knew what I was talking about. Curiousity & learning History (where our docrines came from) took me to this place. I feel more at peace accually, but have lost christian friends because of it. It is not easy when they feel you are "lost" , not right in the head and you know they are constantly praying for your soul. I now can say that I hold "Reason" before "Faith" and not feel shame or guilt because of it. I have been told by a Pastor I am "too Cerebral", I find this very funny now. But why is it, when it comes to living, we always put Reason before Blind faith in every facet of our lives (school, learning, math, our jobs, everything) UNTIL it comes to Religion, then it gets thrown out the window, and this is perfectly acceptable to the majorty of the human race ??