[JL911]

Been seeing my current gf for like 2 months now...I have developed very strong feelings for her and we have seen a lot of one another over this time span, I feel she could possibly be someone I would like to get very serious with and grow with and see where things go. I decided to kinda come clean with my thoughts and current feelings for her and let her know what my intentions are at this point.

She has a bit of a problem with opening up to people and trusting them she said a lot of friends have kinda stuck her in the back over the years and they were supposidly close...I have avoided the issue like the plague, but the other night I could no longer hold in the feelings I have been developing for her came out very nicely and sweet and told her that she is becoming very special to me. I told her if that scares her I am sorry, but I cannot possibly go hold it in any longer. I thought it was a nice gesture and just a small step in what I thought was the direction I want this to be headed. I guess I was expecting a similar response, but i got something a bit different than expected...

She told me it was nice to know how I feel and it does scare her a bit. I asked if she was scared of getting hurt, or scared because she might be feeling the same way I am. She said both...She mentioned about her close friends stabbing her in the back and said no offence to you, but how do I know you wont do the same. She doesnt like to open up and doesnt like to feel vulnerable or putting herself at risk of being hurt. After telling her I had no intentions of hurting her and feel I am in this for the right reasons, she countered me by saying no one ever has those intentions but these things happen....I told her I am not going anywhere, and I know what I am capable of and know what I want in life.

I have been demolished by a few long term relationships in the past, but I realize that the only way to make it work is to take a chance and put myself out there to either be loved unconditionally or rejected. I just felt I was at a point where there were a few things I needed to say, and she needed to hear...

I really kinda regret opening up to her somewhat, but I had to do it and felt it was necessary for my own sanity. But now how do I go about overcoming this obsticle now with this person who I have been building such strong feelings for? How am I ever going to build a loving trusting relationship with her if everytime I try to make a a small step in growing our relationship I feel like I step back. How do I show her I can be trusted?, how can I show her I am worth the risk?