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Have you ever felt that? like you wouldnt kill yourself but if you were to die for some reason it wouldnt be a bad thing?

I know a lot of people who are afraid of death and I cant understand why.

Days like today really make me not mind dying. This usualy is followed by "for a little while" which doesnt make sense, so it occurred to me that i mean I would like to be unconscious for a while. Im in a lot of physical pain right now and I would LOVE it if it just ended like right now....it hurts so freaking bad. (just came back from doctor who was totally useless and after touching my stomach for a while all he had to say was "take tylenol", despite the fact i was doubled over with pain grrr)

In any case back to the topic...does it ever happen to you guys? Honestly, my life as of right now isnt all that great, not too horrible either, but if I died I wouldnt mind it.

WEird cuz i dont feel actually suicidal...just tired, but not really depressed. I would never hurt myself, by any means, and I would feel so bad for my family if i did die...but...i dont know.
The thought hit me as i was trying to make my way back home after the stupid doctor and kind of made me nervous that I would care so little for my life...

Has it ever happened to you guys?