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JJ33
I have beaten this horse to death...lol..sick of hearing my own words really. I have some decisions to make, and think I know what I need, want and don't want anymore. Not sure I think it's a "cop out" but obviously there is something I am holding onto or need to finish, in my own mind/actions. I cant and won't live like this anymore. I will see him if he still comes, say my piece, get out what I need to get out, cry, mourn, laugh, sing, wail, who knows...but this is not anything I want to hold onto after this impending visit.
It may have taken years, and years to come to this point, but I am ready to say my words, speak what I need to get out, face to face, and then wish him well and a good life. I will always care for him as a friend and person, I dont have it in me to hate. I never did, and its wasted energy. I just need to see him in person and handle my business, and send his ass home on a one way flight, and get over this chapter in my life.
I DO have more respect than I did, and that feels good. He was a weakness which I can and will turn in to a strength...for sure.
Peace out,
lfmm
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