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Originally Posted by BCCA

I can relate, long time pot smoker myself.

The problem with weed addicition is that you arent going to be living in a box and turning tricks for it, so its often overlooked as a source of real life problems. But look at you - you were totally pissed UNTIL you smoked some weed. This, my friend, is not healthy. Youre not dealing with the causes of your problems, your smoking them away.

The coffee and adderall arent real good for your heart, and can put a lot of extra stress on it and your veins/organs. You should really scale that down.

Im wondering if you go in a cycle of waking yourself way up in the morning, and putting yourself to bed at night with the pot.

Yes, definitely, that cycle is called my life.

Without those substances, I fall apart! All my life, I was an underacheiever. Now that I've learned to self-medicate, I'm doing pretty well; it's the fact of hating myself sober that I'm struggling with.