Phew. That's better.
You're sounding more sensible, now.
I can tell you that my common sense went out of the window for a bit after my break-up but it's now (almost all of the time

) back in the driving seat.
When your heart isn't ripping you into a billion pieces, you know you can't allow him to pull this sh*t. That is good!
Incredibly difficult as it must be to do, in your situation, you MUST somehow, try to keep your rational brain making the decisions. EVEN if you, ONE DAY, choose to accept his grovelling self back (and I mean GROVELLING, in tears, I am the biggest idiot in the world, what do you want me to do, tell me-I'll do anything [and then actually does it] self), you will need to have completely assessed the situation rationally first.
We're with yer, gal. Stay STRONG. You won't regret it. x