[mileunderground]

I will preface this by saying that I am a gay female - so I'm coming from the perspective of a girl not a guy. So, here's the situation I'm in. I had been hanging out with this girl for a few months and couldn't decide if I was interested or not. Part of me felt scared to be in a relationship and part of me wasn't sure if I was attracted to her or not. She is really pretty and I have always felt comfortable around her. I never felt extremely excited about her, yet was still drawn to something about her.

She eventually started expressing more interest and I felt a bit uncomfortable and/or scared and told her I just wanted to be friends. At that point I didn't feel super attracted to her and didn't want to lead her on. We have remained friends but now I notice myself wondering if I made the wrong decision. I miss hanging out with her and think about her a lot, and find myself feeling jealous of someone new she is possibly dating. I get excited about the possibility of her showing up somewhere that I may be with mutual friends, and feel slightly disappointed if she doesn't. I feel like I wish I would have given it a chance dating her, but that it is probably too late at this point or at least I'm afraid that she is no longer interested.

Is this a typical way to feel about someone you told you just wanted to be friends? Does it sound like a case of wanting what I can't have, or does it sound like I was interested but just scared? I feel like I'm at the point where I need to get over it and move on, or say something to her about it since I've been thinking about it a lot.

Any thoughts? Thanks in advance...