[Cranialrupture]

I dont really have a temper and in no way would I show it to the kids. I am keeping a happy face when around them, and that might be why this is so hard because I need an outlet, I feel like a pressurized bottle ready to pop. I have accepted the fact of the wife leaving and have been dealing with the pain of that, but add the pain of your kids not wanting to go with you because of some outside person that shouldn't be involved and thats where I think alot of my anger is coming from. Its like a wound in wound. I am just trying to be the best dad I can for my kids and it seems like its harder than it should have to be.

One problem that I will admit to is the fact that during our marriage I was co-dependant. I realied on her for alot. I mean I did alot. I was the bread winner, I fixed the house and the cars and took care of the yard and all the 'manly' stuff. I never learned how to do the laundry or cooking (beyond macaroni and cheese) or shopping or sewing, etc and now I am thrown into doing all that, plus all the stuff I used to do for three kids. I will admit that it is very overwhelming. I am trying to do it all because I love my kids and want to raise them right. I dont want them to see their dad as a failure. Im not, I just am feeling very overwhelmed and over burdened and things like this come as hard blow. And I dont have many outlets.