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Originally Posted by Aksion
I'm tired of people telling me to 'move on'. I'm tired of people telling me that I'll 'be ok' -- or that 'its for the best'.
Really? So this mind-fu ck I'm going through right now is for the best? I wish someone would enlighten me as to how.
I'm going for a walk...
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Aks - Though it is probably true that it will get better, you'll be ok, ...
That is not what is important now. You need to get better. Drinking yourself to a stupor, wandering aimlessly all over town all night, those things seem counterintuitive to getting you better. I've asked you if you have family you can go stay with. sOme kind of support system. A church? My family support system (and LS!) is what saved me. I eventually got to where I HAD to move forward (NOT move on!!!) - I had to tell myself that no matter how badly I wanted it all back I had to assume it would never happen and I had to plan life without her. IDK, maybe I am stronger than I think. I feel like the weakest person in the world! But I think we all all that bit of strength to start the ball rolling to recovery from this heartbreak. I still ACHE terribly every day because of this. I feel like this is a dream, a nightmare, that I am not awake (or even alive!).
MY W would never do this - not MY W!! Hell no. I would give up every and any thing to go back in time to when we were good (and it wasn't that long ago) - but it won't happen.
This "mind F*CK" as you say is NOT for the best but you have no control over it.
When my W destroyed the wonderful life I thought I had - it was not for the best. I've just had to tell myself that YES, something good is in my future, maybe not soon, but it will come. Maybe a new love that will appreciate a good man and will truly love me - thru better and thru worse.
Our prayers are with you.
PEACE!
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