[sean1970]

Thanks threebyfate...

It is indeed difficult to take her from the platform I have built for her but, at the same time, impossible to reconcile the person she is now with the one I loved and knew loved me...

Actually had to deal with her making plans and then blowing me off for another guy at the last minute. Ten days later, "Im so sorry for not going with you... He was a jerk, if I would have known, I would never have hurt you."

I know it sounds/is pathetic; but I had worked so hard to show her I had changed... Lost 22lbs, new clothes, new everything... So I accepted her apology and we made plans to meet when she was here on business.... She was all over me.. Could not stop with the compliments, and of course, the tears. Later that weekend, she actually came to my house and rang my doorbell at 1:30am but I did not hear it... Before she left, conversations of the relationship had her run again... Maybe if I would have kept my cool, taken it slow, and avoided the relationship talk, it would have been different. Ill never know....

The mixed signals have driven me to the edge...

Thank you again....