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the divorce was final in June. It was crack and he just started disappearing overnight. As soon as I started talking to people about what was going on, (his family, a neighbor I called to watch my kid cause I was on a biz trip and he disappeared, his boss because he told me he was "passing out" at work) my hubby was lost to me. They have to protect the addiction, by any means. I threw him out.

In my opinion, the husband I knew is gone forever. He's been replaced by this guy who lied to me repeatedly, left a little girl home alone so he could score drugs, still isn't in recovery, has zero personal integrity and wouldn't know the truth if it bit him in the ass.

I think about him all the time, but there came a time when I had to put my life back together. I do zero contact with him because everytime we had contact, there was more bull**** and lies.

I went to AlAnon, but most the people in there stayed in the relationship for years or its their children (a whole new kind of heartbreak). But it did help and made me glad I chose a different path.

Sorry for your pain, hope my story helped a little.