Since the breakup of my 2 year + relationship, i've been trying to analyse/understand how I have contributed to its downfall. One thing i've noticed is that I don't like relationships that develop in the 'normal, healthy way' i.e. boy meets girl, boy likes girl, boy and girl go out. I find this boring, unfulfilling and for some reason I become the emotionally unavailable one who wants to run away. I am drawn to relationships with someone where there is a challenge, drama, something to conquer. To me this equals passion, intensity and the passion and intensity of the situation transfers onto the person. I honestly believe this is the only way I could love someone again....I just can't fall for people in the conventional normal way....so it seems to me I would need to always put myself in painful and damaging situations simply to fall in love. This way sound very weird....but I think I almost have a fairytale/movie view of love, where the suffering of love makes that love unique and special, whereas a happy, normal lovelife to me seems very boring, and I don't think it would fulfill me.
Counseling helped me. I call it the train wreck syndrome. I always felt the compulsion to stop at the train wreck to see if I could help. Now I recognize the compulsion for what it is and continue driving. It's not 100% but getting divorced is helping, in that I can put emotions (negative ones) behind the theraputical work.
This doesn't mean the tug of the disfunctional will not tempt me. They will. I have to process that part intellectually, as my emotional setpoint will always remain. By cognitively processing the emotion and freeing myself to pay attention to the road ahead, I position myself to encounter people who are not train wrecks and bring positive energy into my life. It's a shift in focus.
In your case, you find the drama exciting, but know it's unhealthy. Conversely, you find the lack of drama boring. For you, drama is your train wreck.
Most women under 45 are like the OP. I don't like games and they want games and I can never satisfy them. Dating "advice" sites everywhere encourage this behavior. A women gets burned by a game playing man and starts playing games herself so she can get the game playing man. Men are just as much to blame as women.
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Most women under 45 are like the OP. I don't like games and they want games and I can never satisfy them. Dating "advice" sites everywhere encourage this behavior. A women gets burned by a game playing man and starts playing games herself so she can get the game playing man. Men are just as much to blame as women.
Yes exactly - the games are encouraged! You aren't meant to say what you want because as soon as you do 'the game' and 'the chase' are over. I think men just as much as women can be drawn to this. Dating and relationships are encouraged to be all about symbols, signs, hints...nothing concrete.
With billions of people in the world, the cool thing is that *you* get to choose who you play with. Nothing is ordained or required. You have freedom to choose. Choose wisely
With billions of people in the world, the cool thing is that *you* get to choose who you play with. Nothing is ordained or required. You have freedom to choose. Choose wisely
I'm trying to learn how to do that
I hate being drawn to things that hurt me.
Its like a moth to a flame.
Its a hard, very painful lesson to learn, but maybe thats what my relationship taught me. Unfortunately I think sometimes it takes several bad experiences to really 'shake' you of your bad habits.
Dating and relationships are encouraged to be all about symbols, signs, hints...nothing concrete.
The minute you say something concrete and direct, the woman accuses you of coming on too strong and gets scared...
If I tell a girl I'm interested in that I want to f*** her all night, she might feel uneasy and have a sudden change of plans - but if I tell her that I want to hang out and that I'm feelin' kinda feisty its okay lol - or I just wanna hang out and not do anything but relax and she thinks I'm tryin' to get in her panties and change her plans, when I'm not even that interested in her...
You ladies propogate the game.
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The minute you say something concrete and direct, the woman accuses you of coming on too strong and gets scared...
If I tell a girl I'm interested in that I want to f*** her all night, she might feel uneasy and have a sudden change of plans - but if I tell her that I want to hang out and that I'm feelin' kinda feisty its okay lol - or I just wanna hang out and not do anything but relax and she thinks I'm tryin' to get in her panties and change her plans, when I'm not even that interested in her...
You ladies propogate the game.
A game can't exist without participants. Both men and women play games with each other. But yes directness does frighten people off, half the time because people don't know what they want. I think directness only frightens someone if they aren't really into you....I think people like to feel each other first.
The minute you say something concrete and direct, the woman accuses you of coming on too strong and gets scared...
You ladies propogate the game.
The first part is tree. I cut out the lines about the sex becuase I'm a guy who would rather wait for awhile before the sex.
The second part is only half true. Men are just as guilty of this crap as women. Game playing men have a habit of dating a woman and suddenly disappearing. I don't get why many men do this. I would never ever, but read the threads around here and it is very common.
We end up with a cycle. Women and men respond to each other's games and the non game players of both sexes get screwed.
Since the breakup of my 2 year + relationship, i've been trying to analyse/understand how I have contributed to its downfall. One thing i've noticed is that I don't like relationships that develop in the 'normal, healthy way' i.e. boy meets girl, boy likes girl, boy and girl go out. I find this boring, unfulfilling and for some reason I become the emotionally unavailable one who wants to run away. I am drawn to relationships with someone where there is a challenge, drama, something to conquer. To me this equals passion, intensity and the passion and intensity of the situation transfers onto the person. I honestly believe this is the only way I could love someone again....I just can't fall for people in the conventional normal way....so it seems to me I would need to always put myself in painful and damaging situations simply to fall in love. This way sound very weird....but I think I almost have a fairytale/movie view of love, where the suffering of love makes that love unique and special, whereas a happy, normal lovelife to me seems very boring, and I don't think it would fulfill me.
Any ideas of how to stop being like this?
How do you think you could achieve a different ending?
My take would be to not try so hard to make everything happen. Go with the flow. But I do believe that life has its own pattern and flow that can be tapped into when a person is at peace. Not sure that you have the patience at the moment for this. It does sound as though drama is the soundtrack to your life Nikki.
Learn to be still and control your tongue before taking on any further relationships. Its not all about you. Relax.
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