I was wondering if anyone else had experienced something like this. I'm dating the most amazing man and yet.. I can't seem to stay excited about him. He's dazzlingly intelligent, cute in a sexy way, matches my sexuality wonderfully, and is really everything that I've ever wanted (only missing a few muscles). I'm never unexcited/turned-off by him, but.. still.
The problem is that my emotions are SUPER inconsistent. Some evenings/mornings, I feel SO close to him and have to bite back the "L" word.. but then I'll go to sleep, wake up, and feel "meh" regarding him. It's never negative, just this complete apathy. And it bothers me. It wasn't just with him--he's not my physical "ideal", although I'm still very attracted to him, and that's the only detriment I've found thus far, but it happened with another guy who was my physical ideal and seemed like a good guy (he turned out to be a jack***), and I would go back and forth about how I felt about him, too. I don't think this is specific to my current boyfriend.
In fact, I used to feel super close to my dad and now, while we're still very involved in each other's lives and "close", there's still this sense of apathy there--more of an emotional tinge attached--but there's still this giant void where emotion should be.
Does anyone have any thoughts on this? Could it be stress? I'm taking three work-intensive summer classes in addition to working and haven't really had much of a social life outside of homework, and am often tired. Any feedback would be appreciated.
Can someone forget how to love people?