stanlovesJ Posted October 28, 2009 Share Posted October 28, 2009 (edited) OK, so last year i was a freshman in high school. it was the craziest year of my life! to start off, i was 14, not too popular, not a loner , and i was friends with alot of kids that smoked and drank.I had normal friends too. Well they were nice and accepted me. Anyways, i got interested and started drinking quite frequently.i would buy beer , ( 6 and 12 packs) quite often from my friend. i would also buy vodka from him sometimes. I threw parties at my sisters house, she wouldnt really mind.I became friends with the cheerleaders, and they would come, and bring people with them. well for a freshman i was surprised at what i accomplished. Well anyways when ever i had a crazy party and my sisters house I would burn out the next day. Maybe from all the hyper in me, i dont know. With time, i would start getting illusions in my head (stil have them sometimes), like "wow did i really do this with that girl?" or "wow did we really pull that off?" and i would kind of get scared of drinking. then i would quit for maybe 3 weeks and do it again. These thoughts bother me sometimes , because i do not know if i embarrassed myself drunk, and what other people saw or remember.We were never wasted, maybe 5 beers i drank at once. Most people i ask , dont really remember those drinking parties.I was kind of addicted to alcohol last year. then i kind of started to control it , not getting cold turkey anymore. The alcohol sometimes made me weird things. How do i get rid of these thoughts bothering me in my head if i dont know whats real? Maybe it was my ego? if i ask someone something from last year, they might think im joking. maybe they wont remember at all. Edited October 28, 2009 by stanlovesJ Link to post Share on other sites
Enema Posted October 28, 2009 Share Posted October 28, 2009 So you drank a lot of beer. (for a 14 year old) Then, you're not sure if you remember things correctly the next day? That's a fairly normal reaction to overdoing it. Link to post Share on other sites
Author stanlovesJ Posted October 28, 2009 Author Share Posted October 28, 2009 i know but do you think i was imagining stuff? Link to post Share on other sites
Sweetcheripie Posted October 28, 2009 Share Posted October 28, 2009 i know but do you think i was imagining stuff? Do you have a counselor you can see? Or can you talk to your family physician? What you are describing could be a psychiatric condition and the alcohol might be a way of self medicating. Would you be able to talk to your parents? Link to post Share on other sites
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