Doubting What I Did.

[co456]

So I'm new here and made an account just to gain some insight...

I broke up with my first ever girlfriend of a year and a half yesterday. Things at the time just seemed numb, I felt like she was being too clingy and she started getting jealous of me being friend with on of my floormates who happens to be a girl despite telling her numerous times that we honestly, just friends. In addition to that I felt like I had no bro time or anytime at all to myself just to cool off and relax. After thinking for a while, I decided to call it off.

 

 

We go to the same university and since going there we have been fighting more, I feel like she has made me too central a character in her life, she has had trouble making friends and she has become extremely attached to me.

 

 

Leading up to it i thought it was the right thing to do, although when it happened It was hard to do it. Seeing her like that was traumatizing and it hurt a lot. I told her I needed time to sort my thoughts and emotions out and I felt like it wasn't fair to her to be in a relationship with her.

As soon as I got back to my dorm I started crying, it felt like my heart had been ripped out and I had been crying the entire day and even today.

All I think about now is her and how much fun we've had together, I feel like I want her back but there's something egging me. I'm scared to get back with her because I do not want to hurt her like that again.

 

 

She loved me unconditionally and was devoted to me, the memories of our relationship keep playing through my head and it just felt right, now everything feels wrong and it feels empty.

 

 

Part of me says I should have waited or communicated with her better and told her I needed my space. She texted me, saying "take as long as you need, I will always love you"

 

 

I don't know what to do, I'm completely in shambles right now. Should I try getting her back?

 

 

Im sorry if this all seems jambled, there's just so much in my head right now.

[DorkBreakfast]

I'm going to assume you're a youngin'. Having a female friend as a guy who's already spoken for is going to cause trouble down the line. Your girlfriend will always be somewhat suspicious of the female friend even if she is truly 100% platonic. That's just how it is. You said she is sort of jealous which just means she has insecurities. When someone gets to the point of making you their sole reason for existence, so to speak, that is a bad sign.

 

 

I'm not saying what you did was right or wrong. Breaking up with someone is never easy. I know how it feels because I've been in your spot. I think you should take time and figure out what you really want in a relationship. Don't make a judgment call about getting back together while you're in pain.