BillG Posted June 22, 2003 Share Posted June 22, 2003 Hey guys, Let me start by saying that I am a young (23), rather reserved and rational man. I have many friends who are women, but I have rarely had any serious relationship with any. My friends usually see me as the smart one, and the conscience they are sometimes lacking Obviously, if word about what happened two nights ago gets out, this will change a little. On that night, I went out with a friend of mine to an Aussie bar where I met this friendly and rather cute girl. After chatting for a while, and drinking one too many beer, we somehow started kissing. We ended up in my place where the kissing continued; then kissing turned to fooling around some more, then we ended in bed. Both of us didn't have any experience in this kind of thing, so it was a little awkward. I was left leading (me, leading?) and didn't know too much what to do. There were good times, and good new (!) feelings too, but it wasn't very satisfying, both physically and psychologically. Btw, we didn't go "all the way". The morning after I accompanied her to the subway station, we kissed goodbye but didn't exchange numbers. She did look cuter the night before This whole experience leaves me completely dumbfounded and with strange feelings. It just didn't feel right. It didn't feel right because I didn't know what to do in bed, because she didn't seem to enjoy it that much, because I didn't enjoy it that much either, and because it wasn't like me at all to do that kind of thing. I'm wondering if I pushed her to do anything she didn't want to do, if I went too fast. I'm worried that this experience makes me a bad person. I'm also worried that next times (sober, not-rushed, and hopefully loving next times!) will be worse or just not that good. I'm writing all these questions and I already know what a lot of you will say: "You were thinking too much about it then, and you're still thinking too much about it now". It's true. But "then" is gone and I can't change it; "now" I need to get closure. This is how I am What's your take on this one guys? I'd love to have your opinion to help me see through this more clearly. Thanks a lot! Bill Link to post Share on other sites
Tony T Posted June 22, 2003 Share Posted June 22, 2003 I think you ought to have more experiences like this, with ladies you know better and for whom you have feelings. In time, you will get much better at lovemaking. Meanwhile, be assured that many people have experiences such as the one you described. They're just part of life. You probably had a great time but just don't remember it so well because of the abundance of alcohol in your blood at the time...which affects memory. Link to post Share on other sites
Paulie Posted June 23, 2003 Share Posted June 23, 2003 Tony is right...you ought to go out, have a cheezeburger and pat yourself on the back. Good for you...theres nothing all that wrong with what you did. You ought to go try to do it again with another girl. Good luck. Paulie Link to post Share on other sites
ThisGirlNameKD Posted June 23, 2003 Share Posted June 23, 2003 How do you get closure? You say you had too much to drink, and it led you to do things you're not proud of, but don't wish to do again. You may not be the one for one night stand, seeing that you were drunk, your mental faculties were impaired, but you still had a problem with what you were doing. Nothing's wrong with that, and it doesn't mean you have a problem. It just means that's not your thing. In your post you're looking to having sex with someone you know better, and someone that you love, and someone that will enjoy it as much as you...and that's your thing. Everyone has a moment where we act out of character. Don't take yourself too seriously. Just chalk it up to an unfortunate experience, and move on. Link to post Share on other sites
Xel-Aru Posted June 23, 2003 Share Posted June 23, 2003 This experiance doesnt make you a bad person. But next time ya might not wana have to much to drink. Link to post Share on other sites
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