yes Posted December 31, 2003 Share Posted December 31, 2003 All of you regulars know it's been an icky year for me love-wise. Over the holidays, there's all this family stuff going on, and I feel lonely as hell. I have some friends, but at the end of the day, they've got other people who're more important to them. I guess I'm at a point where I really wish I had a "significant other" - no more impulse to stay free and all that (although it may come back as soon as I begin to date somebody...), I just wanna have someone who I truly care about and it's reciprocal. What's worst, I was out with my 'ex-FWB' last week (yes, i know, bad idea, it was b/c he was helping me get over an ex-bf, still a bad idea, but it's already done...), and now I just imagine him with his wife and kid, all happy and cozy (likely not true seeing how he's cheating on her & all, but still...), and compare that to me, only existent to those I share blood connections with. *sigh* I know this is just a phase, I know I have goals for the new year and since suicide is out of question, I'll go on and strive for them and hell knows, perhaps I'll end up in a sane relationship at some point. What I must leave behind is the ex-bf and the ex-fwb - but it's so scary to let go when there's no replacement in sight - it's pretty much like 'familiar **** is better than the unknown' - how silly!!! I know I'm WAY better off than MANY people today. But at the moment, I'm just not up to sucking it up and not complaining ... -yes Link to post Share on other sites
moimeme Posted December 31, 2003 Share Posted December 31, 2003 I'm with ya, sistah. Let's sing the end-of-year blues.... Link to post Share on other sites
UCFKevin Posted December 31, 2003 Share Posted December 31, 2003 This'll be my first time not having someone to kiss at midnight in a few years. Very depressing thought. I'm looking forward to this year to end. Quickly. In other words...I'm in your same position. To a T. Link to post Share on other sites
moimeme Posted December 31, 2003 Share Posted December 31, 2003 Kev - I'll blow you a kiss! Link to post Share on other sites
Author yes Posted December 31, 2003 Author Share Posted December 31, 2003 thanks for your replies, guys! to top it all off, i woke up sick like a dog ... shoot me somebody! i'm feeling so nasty, it's becoming amusing! i hope we all have a good year ahead ... and all this ickiness gets left behind. -yes Link to post Share on other sites
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