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Hello everyone, this is my first time posting on this forum. I want to discuss my current “FWB relationship” with a women that has been in my life for going on 6 years now and I wanted to get people’s take on my situation. I seek guidance and aid from those who have a lot more experience than I do.

 

 

I’m 33, never married, no kids….. I met my FWB at school in 2013. She took the initiative and expressed her interest in me very overtly. I received it with both concern and huge flattery at the same time. I was not attracted to her physically nor attracted to her personality. We started talking after our schooling ended and getting to know each other on a strictly friendship level and we got closer. During that time I was thinking that she might be the perfect person to lose my virginity to instead of an escort. So everyone knows…. I’ve had the worst luck in the dating scene growing up into my adulthood and she is the only women that has ever took the initiative. I knew that she had a strong romantic interest in me but I did not feel the same. I told her about my intentions with her in complete transparency and she accepted it.

 

 

The night I lost my virginity to her was difficult. As I said before, I’m not physically attracted to her so I had to imagine a women I was attracted to (a women a work, or a porn star, etc) in order to get hard and finish. It’s been like this to this day, I still have to concentrate on other women in order to be intimate with her. She knows about this too.

 

 

We kept seeing each other in a friend with benefits kind of relationship. She was going through severe/dire hard times with the death of her husband (she was separated at the time) and she needed emotional support and I was the only person around to give it to her. Our connection got stronger and we became closer.

 

 

Over the years we have been off and on, we would stop talking then talking again, we would make it official and become boyfriend girlfriend then later I would break up with her because I become bitter towards her due to the lack of physical attraction.

 

 

I’ve asked out so many women (well over hundreds at this point) with all of them saying no or they are spoken for. The women I do manage to get dates with have no interest in me afterwards. I even managed a one night stand with a women and she was amazing. I had a strong physical attraction towards her but she didn’t want anything serious with me. The selection of suitable mates here are almost nonexistent. I have given up and have tried to concentrate on the “relationship” I have with this women.

 

 

Right now she and I are the closest we have ever been, we know each other, we are truly best friends, and I have a great time when we are together. When we are in bed, there is affection and nurturing while cuddling and I love that….but…… when she is in the “mood” and wants more sex from me it is super difficult and I work and concentrate to get myself in the mood too.

 

 

My question to everyone…. Is physical attraction really important and necessary in a relationship? She is 40 and I’m 33, age will make everyone ugly one day right? In your latter years going towards being old, looks wouldn’t matter anymore right? What is everyone’s take on this?

 

 

If anyone has any specific probing questions please ask.

 

 

Thank you

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Being physically attracted is typically high on the list of priorities in the beginning of the relationship. You are right however, in saying that age makes everybody a little worse for the wear. As an Asian, I can proudly say that Asians age the slowest. If you think there is a lack of physical attraction, then props to you for being honest. Can you bring yourself to be attracted to any other part of her? From a women's perspective, they admire hotness just as much as we do. However, women are generally much more willing to look over a less than "Brad Pitt body" if other redeeming characteristics are there. You'll have to ask yourself if you are willing to discipline yourself to see her other redeeming traits and be sexually attracted to those.

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Being physically attracted is typically high on the list of priorities in the beginning of the relationship. You are right however, in saying that age makes everybody a little worse for the wear. As an Asian, I can proudly say that Asians age the slowest. If you think there is a lack of physical attraction, then props to you for being honest. Can you bring yourself to be attracted to any other part of her? From a women's perspective, they admire hotness just as much as we do. However, women are generally much more willing to look over a less than "Brad Pitt body" if other redeeming characteristics are there. You'll have to ask yourself if you are willing to discipline yourself to see her other redeeming traits and be sexually attracted to those.

 

 

I can't be sexually attracted to those traits but it can help me have a form of love for her I guess.

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Physical attraction plays a major role in a relationship. (Well I haven't had many only 1 relationship/ marriage of 13 yrs but a few FWBs)

 

If you admit now that you are not physically attracted to her and imagine other women during sex, you are likely to build resentment as the relationship ages. Her as well.

 

You are considering her as she is your only option now.What if you meet a better option in the future and she reciprocates you as well? These things can happen...

 

I don't know what to say, just follow your gut.

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Physical attraction plays a major role in a relationship. (Well I haven't had many only 1 relationship/ marriage of 13 yrs but a few FWBs)

 

If you admit now that you are not physically attracted to her and imagine other women during sex, you are likely to build resentment as the relationship ages. Her as well.

 

You are considering her as she is your only option now.What if you meet a better option in the future and she reciprocates you as well? These things can happen...

 

I don't know what to say, just follow your gut.

 

 

That is the reason why I broke up with her this year. I was resenting her and it was building up to bitterness. My fear is it turning into something worse. She is a great women, we have everything else that would make the foundation of an amazing relationship....except the physical lust/attraction/chemistry.

 

 

I don't know what to do, it seriously does feel like she is the only option. I've given up completely on trying to meet another women. I don't want to ruin what I have with her. I think it's harder too since she is my first.

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Physical attraction will get my attention, personality, ambition, kindness.... that’s what makes me interested. I think it’s absolutely normal to *need* some sort of physical attraction.

 

As for needing to visualize another woman in order to get off with her....I think it’s best if you continue to try and pursue other woman because over time I think your resentment will grow.

 

What type of woman are you seeking? Do you think your expectations are too high?

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Physical attraction will get my attention, personality, ambition, kindness.... that’s what makes me interested. I think it’s absolutely normal to *need* some sort of physical attraction.

 

As for needing to visualize another woman in order to get off with her....I think it’s best if you continue to try and pursue other woman because over time I think your resentment will grow.

 

What type of woman are you seeking? Do you think your expectations are too high?

 

 

That's my fear.... is resenting her when she has been the sweetest women to me over the years who truly appreciates and loves me. I just wish I was on the same level as her.

 

 

Perhaps my expectations are too high.... I've seeking a women who doesn't have kids, is around my age or younger (the women I'm seeing is 40), very curvy with a booty (thats what turns me on, the women Ive been seeing doesn't have any of this). A women who is financially independent and financially stable. A women who has healthy life habits, cares about her health and wellness, exercises routinely.

 

Do you think those are high expectations?

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Do you think those are high expectations?

 

 

All those qualities in one... Yes IMO it's high expectations. Are you economically stable at your age?

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I definitely agree- don’t settle. You will never truly be happy if you do.

 

As far as your expectations... well, I think you are really restricting yourself from the possibility of meeting someone great. What if the woman of your dreams has a child but you never gave her the chance because you had made up your mind about not wanting anyone with kids. Or what if an amazing woman is out there but doesn’t have the perfect booty that you desire? Is it really worth passing up a potentially amazing person over a booty?

 

When i was dating I definitely had a list in my mind of what made a perfect guy for ME. BUT I realized that there isn’t the identical perfect guy that I had conjured up in my mind that’s in real life. Instead there were certain qualities that I found in different men.... I ended up weighting out what was the most important quality/expectation in guys.... humor? Ambition? Body? ...

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All those qualities in one... Yes IMO it's high expectations. Are you economically stable at your age?

 

 

Yes I am stable financially. Not in any debt except a car payment and my credit is getting close to 800.

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I definitely agree- don’t settle. You will never truly be happy if you do.

 

As far as your expectations... well, I think you are really restricting yourself from the possibility of meeting someone great. What if the woman of your dreams has a child but you never gave her the chance because you had made up your mind about not wanting anyone with kids. Or what if an amazing woman is out there but doesn’t have the perfect booty that you desire? Is it really worth passing up a potentially amazing person over a booty?

 

When i was dating I definitely had a list in my mind of what made a perfect guy for ME. BUT I realized that there isn’t the identical perfect guy that I had conjured up in my mind that’s in real life. Instead there were certain qualities that I found in different men.... I ended up weighting out what was the most important quality/expectation in guys.... humor? Ambition? Body? ...

 

 

Perhaps your right. She has other qualities that I love. She appreciates me and no other women out side of my own family has ever appreciated me.

 

 

I hope the lack of physical lust towards and her unhealthy habits doesn't make it worse as her and me get older.

 

 

I don't know....

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I’d like to think that my guy finds me physically attractive.

 

I’m not really interested in having sex with a man who finds me unattractive, and has to really work hard to make it happen. That’s not appealing, at all.

 

I think what you have with this woman is a friendship. You are missing out on so much if you settle for a relationship that is not supposed to be a close, physically intimate relationship.

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Since you've been so honest with her about not being physically attracted to her why not work with her so that she can become more physically attractive?

 

There is so much a woman can do to become attractive. I work in the field of beauty and I believe 90 per cent of women or there abouts can become beautiful.

 

If her weight is an issue she can go to the gym. If you have to have the booty can she get implants? Also, maybe she could work with someone about learning how to enhance her appearance.

 

This is one time that I wish this board wasn't anonymous because I would love to take the project on of helping her learn to be attractive!

 

Surely she can find some help somewhere! There is so much that can be done!

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I don't see this ending well. If you aren't attracted to her now, you won't be attracted to her later. Is that fair to her? She must have pretty low self esteem to stay with someone who admits isn't attracted to her. If a man told me he had to think of someone else to get it up I'd be out the door. How would you feel if she told you she had to close her eyes and picture someone else in order to get turned on enough to have sex with you?

 

I think it would be extremely painful for her if you asked her to change everything about herself in order for you to become attracted to her.

 

I feel sorry for her. You are using her even if you don't realize it. It sounds like you love her as a friend and as a friend you should set her free so she can find someone that is attracted to her. The benefit of that is then you can go find someone you're attracted to also.

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I’d like to think that my guy finds me physically attractive.

 

I’m not really interested in having sex with a man who finds me unattractive, and has to really work hard to make it happen. That’s not appealing, at all.

 

I think what you have with this woman is a friendship. You are missing out on so much if you settle for a relationship that is not supposed to be a close, physically intimate relationship.

 

 

We do have a strong and powerful friendship but isn't that the foundation needed for a solid relationship.

 

 

Since you've been so honest with her about not being physically attracted to her why not work with her so that she can become more physically attractive?

 

There is so much a woman can do to become attractive. I work in the field of beauty and I believe 90 per cent of women or there abouts can become beautiful.

 

If her weight is an issue she can go to the gym. If you have to have the booty can she get implants? Also, maybe she could work with someone about learning how to enhance her appearance.

 

This is one time that I wish this board wasn't anonymous because I would love to take the project on of helping her learn to be attractive!

 

Surely she can find some help somewhere! There is so much that can be done!

 

 

I've brought up the subject of changing her diet and going the gym, not just to enhance her physical appearance but better her health. She is very apathetic to making a routine of it. She will never go to the extent for implants and Ill never ask that of her.

 

 

I don't see this ending well. If you aren't attracted to her now, you won't be attracted to her later. Is that fair to her? She must have pretty low self esteem to stay with someone who admits isn't attracted to her. If a man told me he had to think of someone else to get it up I'd be out the door. How would you feel if she told you she had to close her eyes and picture someone else in order to get turned on enough to have sex with you?

 

I think it would be extremely painful for her if you asked her to change everything about herself in order for you to become attracted to her.

 

I feel sorry for her. You are using her even if you don't realize it. It sounds like you love her as a friend and as a friend you should set her free so she can find someone that is attracted to her. The benefit of that is then you can go find someone you're attracted to also.

 

 

No it's not fair to her... I get it. I believe she does have self esteem but she sticks with me because she is in love with me and I have treated her good. Your right it's messed up when you put it that way. It would bug me if she told me that she had to picture someone else and I would push myself harder to become more physically attractive. I really do feel like she is my only option, how do you get out of that feeling? I'm trying to concentrate on all the good qualities.... and she has a legion of good qualities. Why the hell does physicality have to be so important?!?! This sucks...

 

 

 

You make very good points, thank you. I have a lot to think about.

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I used implants as an example but not necessarily something she'd have to do to become attractive. There is so much that can be done aside from plastic surgery!

 

Even the way one walks and carries herself can be a positive or negative. Again, that's just an example. There are many things that enter into a person being attractive or not.

 

If she knows you're not attracted to you and isn't interested in doing anything about her appearance, that's a red flag it seems to me.

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Perhaps my expectations are too high.... I've seeking a women who doesn't have kids, is around my age or younger (the women I'm seeing is 40), very curvy with a booty (thats what turns me on, the women Ive been seeing doesn't have any of this). A women who is financially independent and financially stable. A women who has healthy life habits, cares about her health and wellness, exercises routinely.

 

Do you think those are high expectations?

Well, I'm not going to blow smoke up your ass and I'll be honest with you.

 

You were a virgin until the age of 27 which means either you yourself are not very attractive, or you lack the basic ability to have an intelligent, mature conversation with a woman and/or form a connection with her. I'm sure it wasn't for religious reasons that you remained a virgin this long, it was due to lack of opportunity because you said you were considering paying an escort to get the deed done. So it's pretty much a given that you're not scoring with the women.

 

You have a whole wish list for the ideal woman - she must be built like a brick ****-house AND have a large butt, she has to be financially stable, no kids, and younger than you.

 

I'm just going to say this. There are the way things SHOULD be, and the way things ARE.

 

Sure, it SHOULD be that this fabulous woman should just appear on your doorstep simply because you want her to, right? But in reality, the way things ARE is that it ain't going to happen because it sounds like you're seeking out women who bring way more to the table than you do.

 

I'm just being honest. Some people hate the term 'league' but like it or not, the term exists for a reason. I think you're shooting for something WAY out of your league with the description above and you need to readjust your expectations to align with what you BRING to the table.

 

And lastly, you're acting like a spoiled little self-indulgent brat towards this 40 year old woman, with your bitterness and resentment toward her because she's not the fantasy woman you want. She hasn't been holding a gun to your head for 6 years and MAKING you stay involved with her. You're getting sex and companionship from her and she's better than nothing, so THAT'S why you continue seeing her. Because you don't have any better prospects so you stay for your own benefit. But if that fantasy woman showed up on your porch tomorrow, this poor 40 year old would be thrown to the curb so hard and so fast even her mother would feel it.

 

I really do feel like she is my only option...
Yup. That's pretty much what I've been saying all along in this post.

 

,I honestly wish that poor woman you're seeing would find her dignity and self respect instead of clinging to someone whose let her know how unappealing and undesirable he finds her. If she had more self respect, she would have been gone long ago.

 

As for you, I guess you're kind of getting a taste of the same medicine you've been dishing out, because women are turning you down left and right and not finding you appealing at all. So, it's kind of a vicious cycle in a way.

 

You have no romantic intentions toward this poor woman and will bolt if a better deal comes along. That's shameful because you know, deep down, it's the truth.

 

The only thing I can recommend is that you start showing this woman the respect she deserves.

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This situation will only get worse. You are not attracted to her, that's not going to get better. Your resentment and bitterness are not going to get better.

 

Personally I wouldn't settle just to have someone. For me, being with the wrong person is much worse than being being alone.

 

Do you have any idea why you have a hard time connecting with other women? Maybe put some effort into seeing if there's something you can do about that.

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