I feel like a strange

[Anonymous]

Hi, I don't know how make this, I am new and my english is bad.

Lately I've been feeling tired, frustrated by stupid things, and sometimes my own family irritates me. Let's just say they're not the best family in the world, but they're not bad either. I love them, but they often irritate me. Hearing my parents complain about anything just gets on my nerves. I also have an addiction, not too serious, but when everything else falls apart, I turn to it. I have several friends, and that makes me happy because I genuinely laugh with them, and I'm grateful they're my friends. I also feel like I've lost friends I thought would be my lifelong friends. Things with my girlfriend aren't going well; we haven't seen each other in a month and a week. What the hell is that? I know she loves me, but she's very much a homebody because of her parents, and I'd like to see her, but there are always obstacles. I feel like she doesn't make the effort she should to at least see me once a week, and our relationship feels very distant compared to the years we were together (we've been dating for almost four years).
I don't know if this is the right forum to post this. I haven't told anyone how I feel, not a single person. I don't even know if people will make fun of me or something like that XD. Thanks if you read it all.

[MsJayne]

Hi there, can I ask what your cultural background is and your age? It may help people get a better insight into your situation. What sort of things happen in your family that upset you? 

[Anonymous]

3 hours ago, MsJayne said:

Hola, ¿puedo preguntar cuál es tu origen cultural ¿Y tu edad? Puede ayudar a las personas a comprender mejor su situación. ¿Qué tipo de cosas pasan en tu familia que te molestan? 

Hi, thank you so much for your reply. I don't quite understand what you mean by "cultural background." So, I'll say that I'm from a Latin American country, and I'm 17 years old. I've been thinking that I'm just another teenager with obvious emotional problems, I say this because of my age. My family problems seem to center around my mother and father. I know they shouldn't be together, but they are, and I doubt they'll ever separate because the time for decisions has passed. Sometimes they seem like good parents, but then they have to argue about something, and that stresses me out a lot, to the point where I feel like I'm going to explode. The slightest noise I hear when they're like that causes me so much stress, ugh. My father went to a psychologist before (many years ago) for anxiety and bipolar disorder. I don't know if that can be inherited, but one of my conclusions is that I might have it too. I am very dependent on my girlfriend, and I am in a situation where this year I have seen her a maximum of 15 or 20 times, which puts me at a point where I cannot sleep at night

[MsJayne]

3 hours ago, Anonymous said:

Hi, thank you so much for your reply. I don't quite understand what you mean by "cultural background." So, I'll say that I'm from a Latin American country, and I'm 17 years old. I've been thinking that I'm just another teenager with obvious emotional problems, I say this because of my age. My family problems seem to center around my mother and father. I know they shouldn't be together, but they are, and I doubt they'll ever separate because the time for decisions has passed. Sometimes they seem like good parents, but then they have to argue about something, and that stresses me out a lot, to the point where I feel like I'm going to explode. The slightest noise I hear when they're like that causes me so much stress, ugh. My father went to a psychologist before (many years ago) for anxiety and bipolar disorder. I don't know if that can be inherited, but one of my conclusions is that I might have it too. I am very dependent on my girlfriend, and I am in a situation where this year I have seen her a maximum of 15 or 20 times, which puts me at a point where I cannot sleep at night

"Cultural background" means the country you come from, your religion, your education, etc,  .  So, you're coping with a lot, it's hard enough navigating your teenage years without having difficulties at home making it harder. Anxiety disorders, depression, bipolarity, etc, can be inherited, and if you think you may have some type of disorder then, if possible, the best thing to do is see your doctor and talk to him/her about it, and if you need therapy they can refer you to a professional who can diagnose and support you. The anxiety you feel about your girlfriend, a kind of over-dependence, could also be part of an anxiety disorder. It's quite likely that living with parents who create a stressful environment by arguing is a big part of any emotional distress you're feeling, and unfortunately there's probably not much you can do about that, adults don't always act like grown-ups. Do you have grand-parents, siblings, or any other family who you could turn to to talk about what's happening? 

[chiswis]

4 hours ago, MsJayne said:

"Antecedentes culturales" significa el país de donde vienes, tu religión, tu educación, etc  .  Entonces, estás lidiando con muchas cosas, ya es bastante difícil atravesar tu adolescencia sin tener dificultades en casa que lo hagan más difícil. Los trastornos de ansiedad, depresión, bipolaridad, etc., pueden ser hereditarios, y si crees que puedes tener algún tipo de trastorno entonces, si es posible, lo mejor que puedes hacer es consultar a tu médico y hablar con él/ella al respecto, y si necesitas terapia pueden derivarte a un profesional que pueda diagnosticarte y apoyarte. La ansiedad que sientes por tu novia, una especie de dependencia excesiva, también podría ser parte de un trastorno de ansiedad. Es muy probable que vivir con padres que crean un ambiente estresante discutiendo sea una gran parte de cualquier angustia emocional que estés sintiendo, y desafortunadamente probablemente no haya mucho que puedas hacer al respecto, los adultos no siempre actúan como adultos. ¿Tienes abuelos,¿Hermanos o cualquier otra familia a la que puedas recurrir para hablar sobre lo que está pasando? 

Oh, I understand. I'm from Mexico, and religiously speaking, I'd say I'm Christian because I believe in the God of the Bible, although I must admit I'm not someone who goes to church or follows it to the letter. I simply believe in God and in loving people. I've thought about talking to a professional, although I must admit I'm a little embarrassed, but I have no doubt that I might have some kind of disorder. I hate it when adults don't behave like adults, even though I sometimes empathize with them. It's their first time living, just like me, but they don't realize that many of their actions hurt others. My family is in another state, and honestly, I don't talk to them much, only to wish them a happy birthday. My relationship with my brother is quite good, but I feel ashamed to tell anyone what I'm feeling. In fact, that's why I'm writing this here. Thank you so much for responding to my comments; I really appreciate it