TheGuitarist Posted December 5, 2009 Posted December 5, 2009 This week was an interesting one. I managed to make an emotional connection with a girl. In just a week. Actually it wasn't even a week more like a few days. Her name Maiysa. A 5'3 107lb Bengali girl. Her hair was long black and silky and it had a feel as though it where made of satin and Italian leather. She managed to get my heart in 3 short days and to break it in 5. In a point in time where I vow to not get attached she made my barrier look as if it where made of feather. Feeling that I was getting too close to her I dismissed her once. Only to ask for the return of her company. She granted me another opportunity. She was a very honest girl, not many of her sort are to be found in this world. After our reconciliation she let me know that her expectations of us didn't venture further maybe dating. In hindsight she was justified in feeling this way as she had in the last 3 years had a life threatening event take place. Her motto now to take everyday at a time and to appreciate the here and now. I know understand this, I didn't when I made the decision to alienate her once again. Too bad her being a smart girl will not grace me with her company once again. I don't blame her. My arrogance and pacifism makes me an unstable person to build relationships with if your a girl. Traditionally we learn from our mistakes, I can only hope that this cliché is truth for me. Otherwise I may find myself alone.
learning to deal Posted December 5, 2009 Posted December 5, 2009 I can definitely relate. I've been through so much in the last couple of years, you wouldn't believe it...and because of it I have created a barrier as well until someone got through it almost four months ago. First I believe there is sone comfort in finding someone who is honest and true who can get through your barrier. Maybe it's what you needed...to know that there are people out there worth letting in...and sometimes worth the risk of being torn apart to take that jump towards happiness. If there is something there between the two of you, it will work out in time. She sounds open to being friends....maybe her eyes and heart will open again. Otherwise appreciate the joy you felt with her and try to be more open next time around...love usually hits when we least expect it and aren't looking for it
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